Always you - Justin Bieber

Part 1 - "Please God, let him love me"

My name is Amelia Evens, I am fifteen and I am properly the only one who acted my age in this school. Everyone acts older than they are. I have five best friends, but two different groups, Jasmine and Chloe and then Justin, Ryan and Chaz. We was all fifteen and. Ryan Chaz and Justin are the biggest players ever! They have lost there virginities already! The worse part is, I love Justin. 

I fell in love with him, when I first seen him, it was an automatic connection for me, we clicked no one treats me like he does. He looks at me as if he loves me and he act like he care about me, but he is a player, he doesn't date only has sex with them and then leaves them. The worst art is he tells me and I have to sit there and listen, I have to act like every word he is telling me isn't a knife to the heart. I really do love him and he doesn't feel the same way and I can't force him to love me because you can't help who you love. I also can't not talk to him because he is my best friend and with out him i don't know what I would do with out him.

Shutting my locker and taking a deep breath ready to take on what ever came in my way today, when I seen Justin, talking to Elisha. My enemy. He was a few metres away from me flirting with her as you could see in his face what he wanted. The worst thing about it? He will get it. My heart ached at the sight of it but I shook my head as his eye contact came in my view and went to walk away.

"Yo Amelia! How are you today?" Justin ran over putting his arm over my shoulder, as my stomach burst into a thousand butterflies and causing a blush rise to my cheeks instantly causing a smile come across my face.

"Good," I sighed smiling as I turned my head to face him. "You?" I asked as he smirked to himself  as if he was proud of something and my stomach dropped as well as my smile, which I quickly fixed before he noticed.

"I'm good! There's a party tonight, are you coming?" A party which was the instant reason to why he was smiling, because girls are there. Justin's best word 'girls' anywhere there are girls he will be there. Which was why he was smiling because, he will try get a girl tonight.

"I don't know" I said unsure, I don't want to go because i don't want to see you get on another girls, I felt like screaming at him for how stupid he is. How did he not know? Isn't is obvious I am madly in love with him!

"Please!" He begged and I sighed rolling my eyes. How could I say no when the boy of my dreams is asking me to go!

"Okay, fine" I chuckled and his smile widened, which is another mix signal. He makes out as if he wants me there and he will actually talk to me. But he won't he will be with other girls and won't even notice I am there which is the sad thing about the situation.

"Good see you there." He winked causing me to blush and walked away to meet his 'boys' as I carried on staring for another ten seconds, thinking about everything that just happened.

I turned to see my girl friends shake their heads at me as I mentally rolled my eyes waiting for the speech I was about to get given. When they noticed I had noticed them they immediately ran over all standing by my side.

"Amelia, why?" Jasmine said dragging out the 'why' as I shook my head laughing. "You know what will happen again! Stop talking to him! You will get hurt" I frowned and shook my head, what she said it has totally nothing to do with her I don't care if she's my friend she if she doesn't like it she should shut up.

"You don't understand! He is my best friend if I loose him I loose two things in one! How can I pick from loosing my best friend and my first ever love in one day!" I cried. 

He has never tried to talk to me about feelings or about anything sexual or anything with me. But he's tried to get on every girl, I understand I am not pretty to him but he could still use his brain and think, he is hurting me so much because I really love him and I don't want to ruin our relationship, but I don't know how long I can do this for.

"Lets just go get ready for tonight" Jasmine said changing the subject trying to make me feel better about everything going on with my heartbreak. I lightly smiled appreciating she let it go. 

We all went to my friends Chloe's house to get ready as usual, obviously I went home to get my makeup and dress and to tell my mom and dad were I was going. I wore a red dress with black shoes and my hair curled, I did look nice, wonder if Justin thinks I do. I sighed looking into the mirror at myself in the mirror, I am always relating back to him. 

"Hurry up!" I ran down and sighed knowing tonight will not be good, I had a feeling.

"Woah girl you look hot!" Jasmines said gasping at me and I smiled.

"You too!" I complimented her back as she smirked showing herself off as she knew she looked amazing as she always does.

Walking into the party and the smell of alcohol hit me hard, it was strong. I needed to get drunk to forget about my problems, best solution. Ten minutes into this stupid party and I hadn't seen Justin which is the usual because he doesn't bother coming to find me like I do for him.

"Hey, need a drink?" A boy asked me and I smiled and took it off him, we are underage, but a bit of alcohol always heals a broken heart.

"Thanks" I quickly ran away from him. I am always afraid to talk to other boys because I am so used to being in love with him. Sighing and drinking my drink. He is the only boy I would give the world to and he doesn't even want it, if he doesn't who will? Will I be on my own forever?

Looking around for my friends I soon seen Justin kissing some girl making me feel like shit straight away, sighing I went to get another drink as the alcohol was starting to get to me and I was going red, i hadn't been drunk around Justin before because I say stupid things. I was getting hotter and I was so angry.

About ten shots later I couldn't even see I had never been this bad before. I was sitting outside smoking away my problems, no one knows I smoke, makes me forget.

"Stupid boys" I mumbled flicking the ash off the end of the cigarette. "Don't give a damn in the world" I said putting the cigarette back in my mouth breathing it in.

"Amelia?" Justin said and the sound of his voice gives me goosebumps. I rolled my eyes and went to stand up and walk away from him. "Why you mad" He asked holding my arms to look at him as I was seeing about five of him.

"I'm not mad" I spat and then reality hit me I can't tell him, because he won't want to be my friend.

"Why you acting different then" He asked, I bit my tongue holding so much hatred in and the world began to spin and I frowned thinking about that drink that boy gave me, it tasted weird.

"I'm tired" I sighed and my eyes shut as Justin caught me.

"Shit, Amelia!" He whispered. "You can't go home like this, I'll take you back my house." He picked me up.

"You don't have to do that" i said giggling and slurring my words. 

"Go asleep Amelia." He kissed my forehead as I smiled.

"You mean a lot to me" I cuddled into his chest.

"You too, I care" I sighed knowing I not remember this is the morning. Please God, let him love me.