Always you - Justin Bieber

Part 27 - Mark My Words

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We was currently backstage and Justin was getting ready for his concert. We are doing the second show of North Carolina now. I seen Justin becoming nervous as he does for every show, always worried incase he upsets his fans abut performing bad. but Justin could never perform bad he is amazing at performing it was what he was made to do. 

"You okay?" I asked walking over to Justin and he sighed stressing out but I sat next to him and put my arm around him. "Hey" I said softly. "Stop stressing Justin, you will do amazing as always don't worry" I smiled and he relaxed more. "I will be sat here. Listening to you and watch you perform okay?" I said he he took a deep breath and stood up and put his arms wide.

"I love you" He mumbled into me as I held tightly into the hug my heart fluttered and I felt all warm inside. I won't ever get used to him saying that to me.

"I love you too" I mumbled. "So so much" I said and he kissed my cheek and waved bye as he walked too the stage. I began to get upset and worried so I sat in his dressing room. 

What if one day he leaves me? Will I be able to cope? I had been in and out of love with Justin so many times and then when I got drunk and lost my virginity, something I had always wanted to save I was so lost. I was hurt, although I didn't know him I felt heartbroken and my trust for people went because he took advantage of my drunken heartbroken state and used me for his own need. 

I hate it when I am in these moods I over think everything. Times like this is when I write. I sighed and grabbed my notebook and pen which I always kept with me. It is like my prize possession. I have never shown Justin how much I love him, I only tell him so he has to trust my words I guess. I closed my eyes and thought about it.

"'Mark my words, that's all that I have. Mark my words, give you all I got'" I mumbled the tune into my head knowing that I was going to make a song out of this I carried on as idea's were flying into my head. 

How else did I feel about Justin and my experience with boys? I kept my eyes closed and thought about my heart. I thought about my pain and idea's. "'In every way I will. You're the only reason why. Oh I don't wanna live a lie'" I said this part relating back to my suicidal stage where Justin told me the truth but I always thought he was lying and I didn't want to live through it. But he is alway why I am alive today I guess. "Mark my words X2" I spoke out instead of singing them. 

Should I make it a long or short song. This song has a lot of meaning so people should listen to it and understand and relate. I decided on a short one and cleared m throat again. 

"What to write?" I asked myself, I always take to myself, it is weird. I remembered what I said about Justin on always falling in and out of love with him. Well I always was in love i just didn't want to be so I tried to persuade myself. Didn't work. "'So you heard it all before. Falling in and out of trust'" I sung and wrote it down. I closed my eyes and flashbacks began running through. 

'"Amelia?" I seen a fifteen year old Justin, this was a month or two after I told him I was in love with him.

"Yeah." I sighed as we both laid down on the grass enjoying each others company.

"Why do you always try and fix us?" He asked. "Why don't you give up on me?" He said confused.

"Because you are my best friend Justin, I could never give up on you" I sighed in disappointed in myself I wish I didn't love him but I can't help it.

"You only loose yourself though Amelia" He said sadly I smiled lightly at him.

"I will be okay"'

Little did I know I would be far from okay. I sighed but realised I had another line.

"'Trying to rekindle us. Only to lose yourself'" I sung softly. But another flashback came back to me. These lyrics are from my past with Justin. I let the memory run through my mind.

'"The hate Amelia" Justin cried into my shoulder as I rubbed his back trying to comfort him. 

"They are just haters Justin." i tried to make him feel better.

"But they are so mean" He gasped. 

"Don't do this" I sighed and he wiped his tears.

"They are ruining me already" He sighed giving up and I shook my head.

"I won't let me lose you, and I won't let you just fade away away like that Justin you have worked so hard and after all that we've been through are you crazy!" I gasped "Trust me Justin I'll show you more than I ever could say" I said me he laughed at me and then he was in a good mood from then on which made me happy."'

I gasped and smiled at the memory. "Got it" I mumbled "But I won't let me lose you. And I won't let us just fade away. After all that we've been through. I'm show you more than I ever could say" I sung and wrote it down. I sung the chorus again and decided that that should be the end of the song. 

Justin walked in the dressing room. He looked hot he was all sweaty and had put a lot of effort into the show. He had been performing a lot better since we sorting things out I think it relieved stress and made him feel a lot better.

"I wrote another song for you" I said excited. "It is my best one, it is short so if you don't like it is it okay" I said he took my book and smiled widely at me.

"Amelia, we have to show Scooter your talent and I want to tell them we are dating" Justin said making me smile.

"I would love that Justin" I said and blushed. "Can we tomorrow though? I am tired" I pouted he kissed my lips making me smile and blush again. 

"Of course, anything for you" He said and my heart flutter. I was so in love with him.