Always you - Justin Bieber

Part 21 - "I need him"

"Amelia?" Kate shouted trying to catch my attention which made me look in her direction.

"Yeah?" I replied to her I hated when people said my name always made me nervous about what they would say. I hated people being mad at me. 

"You know this is the second to last day Justin is in New York, he leaves tomorrow?" She said trying to get me to change my mind and I sighed. 

After seeing Justin just over two weeks ago I have done everything to get my mind off him. I didn't want to think about it but I really did. Because I miss him. Maybe it would be good to see him but what if he hates me.

"I know" I sighed and she rolled her eyes at me. She had been seeing her boyfriend a lot lately and I feel like something is going on. "Going for a shower" I stood up and she stopped me.

"Wait!" She suddenly said making me frown. "Me and Mark" Her boyfriend. "Have been talking about something, he wants me to move him with him Amelia" She sighed and I nodded.

"Congratulations I am happy for you." I smiled and she frowned.

"You are not mad?" She asked me I rolled my eyes. "I thought you wouldn't want me to move out" She mumbled

"Kate, you are almost twenty. I can't expect you to live with me for ever" I giggled "If he makes you happy what are you waiting for pack your shit and go, I am happy for you I promise I will find a smaller apartment and live in it. I will still see you" I shrugged and she hugged me.

"Thank you, you are the best best friend ever" I giggled and hugged her back. "Now you can shower."

"Thanks for the confirmation" I said sarcastically causing her to laugh and roll her eyes joking. 

I stood in the shower and played music silently singing all the songs that were being played. I grabbed the shampoo and began to massage my scalp and me closing my eyes enjoying it. I head a background song play causing butterflies to burst and me to open my eyes.

'It feels like we have been out at sea' I gasped and memories came flooding back through my mind of me and Justin. 

'"One day you will be famous Justin and I will be your number one fan" twelve year old me said as I watched his youtube video.

"I don't know Amelia, I mean what if I am not good enough" A boy with dirty long hair said sighing causing me to gasp.

"Justin are you crazy you will have world tours and everything I Believe in you" i smiled and he grabbed my hand.

"You can come with me okay, we will travel the world together because you are my best friend." I smiled and kissed his cheek.'

I rubbed my face trying to take the memories away but it wasn't working. "Shit" I shouted, Justin is all I have he is all I have ever had I promised him I wouldn't leave I promised I would always be there, I am such a fuck up. 

'"No girl has ever cared about me Amelia, it is rare for girls to care these days! When you said those words it scares me. I know there is something there, but I am not ready for anything maybe in the future they're might be. I am not hurting you or trying to saying this I just don't want to hurt you anymore I am sorry for everything I have caused you, you mean so much to me Amelia you are the only girl I have cared about, don't leave me or give up on me please Mills, I need you" He cried.

"We both need each other Justin." I moved over the bed and he got in. "I am sorry for ruining your holiday, if I could control my feelings things would be so different now Justin, I am so sorry" I said into his chest.'

"I need him" I mumbled under my breath. 

'"You are a good kid. The media will get rough or him and the fame can make people change Amelia. Don't leave him, he needs more people like you in his life." I nodded and played with my fingers feeling awkward.

"I don't think I could ever leave him" I whispered. "He is all I have" I smiled' 

"Scooter was right, I fucking left him. He told me he wouldn't do this shit. I rubbed my face again. 

'"Justin?" I said nervously.

"Yeah?"

"When you get famous, promise me you will never change, always be humble and stay Justin" I whispered. "In a few years I don't know if anyone will see you as 'Kidrauhl' they might see you as 'Justin Bieber' so don't change, please?" I asked an he hugged me.

"I will always be your Justin Amelia. Nothing will change me"'

Fucking liar I can't believe he lied. But I lied to him as well. I told him I would be there for him and I have left him as if it was easy for me. What if he doesn't want me in his life?

'"Thank you" I said and kissed his cheek. "For everything you ever done for me Justin, never forget me okay? Be happy, do anything that keeps you happy. If you ever need me I will be there for you Justin but for now I need to be on my own." I cried. "I love you okay?" He nodded looking down and Ryan and Chaz were crying. I hugged them both. "I love you guys thank you so much." I said they just cried.'

I lied to him. I fucking lied. I jumped out the shower and through my rough clothes on and check the time three o'clock. I blow dried my hair quickly and ran into the living room to see Kate sitting there with chips she looked at me as if I was crazy.

"What is up?" She asked me.

"Help me get ready" I said fast she walked over to me confused. "Please?" I begged her and she frowned in confusion. 

"What for?" She asked me.

"I need to see him" I mumbled and then heard her squeal and she grabbed my wrist and ran into her room. 

"Amelia?" She said as I was getting her to do my makeup, she was very talented at it. "You don't have a ticket" She said and I smiled.

"Hopefully Kenny remembers me or people of the team" I said she she smiled.

"If not?" She asked me.

"I will find a way to get in contact with him, he needs me and I need him. I promised him I would be there but I ran away being a coward." I sighed and she put blush on.

"Done" She smiled. "Put this on" She handed me jeans and a dressy top I put them on and she smiled wide at me. "You have one hour, good luck" She said I smiled looked into the mirror and hugged her.

"Thank you-"

"Your cab" She pushed me. "Be quick." She pushed me. "Now go get your man" She winked and I told the cab driver where to go.