The girl who was one of the guys

Too many thoughts and feelings

This halter is pretty much only about Kayla and her thoughts or something like that so I hope you wonderful people enjoy it, luv yas.

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Chapter 22

Today is the day I woke up and realized hey, what's the point of school. Then try and ditch by get fought by Nick and he forces me out the door. Today I woke up and got dressed I put on a teal colored long sleeve shirt and some frayed jean shorts. Then I put on a pair of minty colored shoes.

I walked out the door and got in my car. I didn't have to ride with Chase or anyone today because they all had their cars.

I made my way to school with the radio blasting I mean it's not all the time I get to do this and it's amazing I feel so free!! Anyways I got to school and I didn't feel like taking to any of my friends since last nigh. I just walked straight to class.

I know the guys wanted to talk and apologize I just didn't want to, I mean yeah I was still pissed at them but I just didn't want to talk.

I didn't get anything out of my trunk for practice because, well you'll find out. That was another reason I didn't want to talk to anyone.

I walked into the school and instead of going straight to class like I wanted to I ended up making an early turn and went into coaches office.

"Hey coach." I said greeting him at his desk.

"Hey how's my favorite player?" He asked with a big smile on his face.

"Yeah about that, I need to tell you something." I said nervously.

"Ok, shoot." Coach replied looking at me.

"Yeah well I think I wanna quit the team this year." I said so quickly hay I could have won an award for it.

"Excuse me, please tell me I didn't hear that correctly, you want to quit, but why you've been doing so good."

"I know it's just I don't think I enjoy it as much as last year. I'm just not into it this year." I said honestly and sincere.

"Ok, well if that's what you want that's ok, but just let me tell the guys and promise you'll try out for something else."

"No problem, thanks coach."

"No problem." He said smiling as I walked out and into my fist class.
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Today was normal except I didn't talk at all. Shocking, I know. The school day finally ended and I sprinted to my car trying to stay away from everyone. I saw Nick try and catch up with me but I was already half way through the parking lot and at my car. I quickly got in and drove home.

Thank god he had practice with the rest of the guys, but what if he invited hen over. Ugh I don't want to see or talk to anyone, at least tomorrow's Friday.

I got home and went straight up he stairs and into my room, I'm not going anywhere so I took a shower put on some pajamas and finished my homework.

I finished everything and decided to read, yeah well, I failed at reading, too much silence. I decided to just think, about everything.

(A/N:Some of her thoughts will be important, and also I will write her thoughts in this font anyways thanks luv ya)

I can't believe all the drama that has been happening these few weeks at school, I mean it's not that bad but it's drama. I have so many questions.

What is gonna happen with me and Chase?

Do I feel anything for Chase, if I do I don't think I like him anymore than a friend.

What's up with Jax and his stupid glares when I'm with another guy?
Is he jealous

What do I think about Jax?

What about Arron? I should text him now.

Crap I was supposed to text him during lunch. Crap crap crap. Ugh.

To:Aaron
       Hey sorry I had a lot on my mind today what day do you want the date to be on and where or do you want to pick me up? I'm so so sorry for not texting you earlier, don't be mad. Sorry.

I texted him as I sat up on my bed. I can't believe this, he's the first guys I've liked all year and I screw it up. I mean of course he's not the first guy I've liked but that's another story for another time.

I waited for a reply for like 10 minutes before he finally did. Yay, I mean not to sound desperate but I really like Aaron,I waited at least three minutes before replying back.

From:Aaron
      It's fine I'll call you and tell you, and sorry for not replying right away I just got your txt anyways it's fine just relax we can go on the date tomorrow I'll call you tomorrow and we'll plan it. Ok?

"Thank god, he doesn't hate me." I said to myself.

To:Aaron
      Sounds good and yeah tomorrow is fine just call me, anyways see u tomorrow bye.

I relied quickly and then he replied

From:Aaron
     Great sounds good anyways see you tomorrow. Bye.

Ok now that, that was settled I could finally rest in my thoughts. I looked over at my clock and it read 10:13. Shit I better go to sleep. I just don't want to.

I still have so many questions. I don't even know where to begin. I do know one thing and I know hat there are some feelings all over he place. I also know that Chase has feelings for me, he doesn't know that I'm not sure of my feelings for him,but can't lead him on, and Jax oh my gosh, where do I start, he's hot, but he's a jerk, he's kind, but he's an ass, he's sweet and caring of me but he gets angry over small things like me and base together, even though it's clear I don't feel that way about Chase. Or do I? Ugh, I swear feelings are so complicated.

But one other thing I know, is that someone's gonna get their heart broken.

That's just what I need.

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So that's it for this chapter, I hope you wonderful people liked it, I mad sure it was at least 1000 or more words, I hope you people are enjoying this story so far, and just so you know my feelings are just like Kayla's all over the place, I know, complicated. Haha. Anyways I need to sleep so Byers.

Sincerely,
      Marissa