The girl who was one of the guys

After the party part 3

"Okay so, I'll ask a different question." I said looking up at him sitting up on my bed.

"K, shoot"

"Who and when was you first kiss?" I said a smirk on my lips.

"You might not be too happy with my answer." he said, a nervous look on his face.

"It's okay just tell me, I won't judge"

"Well it was with nobody, and it was nowhere." He said still nervous.

I was surprised that he hadn't had his first kiss yet. I mean yet a again I still haven't had mine. If you don't include the one with Jason. But I mean Jax is actually attractive with me it's just explainable.

I guess I must have had my jaw open a little too much because Jax was about to leave my room. I guess he was pissed at my reaction.

"Jax wait, where are you going?" I asked as I got up to stop him. He stopped then kept walking. He still hadn't answered me.

I continued to follow him by now we were in my hallway downstairs. Heading to the door.

"Jax stop!"

"Why?!" He shouted anger was clearly in his voice.

"Because...I-I don't want you to go."

At this he turned around. "Why, why do you me here, why me, why not Chase?" He asked, I could tell there were many emotions go through him right now.

"Because-'cause" I started my voice cracking, I couldn't cry, I can't, I don't want to.

"Exactly, you don't know, you don't need me, you need someone who can can actually help" he said in a lower voice.

"No, you, I need you, you want to know why, because to day you not anyone else but you, cared enough to come back, you held me and didn't push me to talk, that's why I need you, not because your the only person here right, but because when you came to that park it proved you cared!" I blurted out so fast I was basically half way through a heart attack when I was finished.

"Your just saying that, you don't need me okay I'm just gonna make it worse" he shook his head and turned back towards the door. I ran in front of him and stopped him. I also locked the door while I was there.

"I'm not just saying that, please just-just stay?" I begged still trying to look at him in the eyes although he was avoiding my gaze.

He didn't reply.

"Jax, say something, are you okay?" I asked taking a step closer to him.

"No, I'm not okay we should have never played that game I didn't want you to know things"

"Why is it since w big deal, it's not like I've had my first kiss yet"

"But you do t get it I didn't want you to know that, o didn't want you to think less of me, and I didn't want to ruin my reputation"

"Screw your rep was it really a big deal for me to know you haven't kissed anybody? Or are you embarrassed that I'm the one who found out?" I said starting to get angry and frustrated.

"Listen Kayla, it's not that it's just-"

"Just what you being embarrassed by me?"

"No"

"Then what is it 'cause I'd really like to know?"

"I just didn't want anyone to know"

"You thought I would tell somebody?"

"Well yeah why wouldn't you?" He asked.

"I wouldn't because I'm not like most people, I don't enjoy watching people in pain. I would especially never do that to you, your my friend" I said, my eyebrows furrowed because I could not believe he would think that of me.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have accused you of being that way."

"It's okay you don't have to be sorry, I know how you feel."

"Thanks"

"For what?"

"For talking to me"

"Your welcome, now can we hug it out?"

He pulled me in close.

"We should probably get some sleep"

"Aww do we have to?" He asked in a kid like voice.

"I guess not, we don't have school tomorrow."

"So let's stay up"

I chuckled from his response, "Doing what?" I asked still hugging him and taking in his cologne and fresh sent.

"We can watch a movie"

"Ok"

"Can I pick it?"

"I guess"
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We had just finished watching the movie and decided to watch another. He was lying on the couch and I decided to lay in front of him so that his body was resting on my back.

"Hey, Jax?"

"Yeah?" He replied with a tired voice.

"Thank you"

"For what?" He asked while yawning.

"For being here, for talking with me, for everything."

"Anytime chipmunk" he said and I could just sense the smirk on his face.

"I mean it, thank you"

"I know you mean it, and I meant what I said, anytime, as in I would do this for you anytime"

"Thank you"

"You say that too much"

"I say it because I mean it."

"Well your welcome"

I cuddled into his chest a little more. I was comfortable.

"Are you feeling better?"

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"I mean are you I feeling better with the whole 'stolen first kiss' thing?"

"Yeah, I think I am, thank you, again, you made me forget that"

"You don't have to thank me, you've already done it like a thousand times" he said sarcastically.

"I know but I think that you need to know just how much I appreciate that you were there, even though you weren't my best friend, or even friend, I'm still glad you stayed." I could feel his smile grow as I said that, he had his face against my back.

"I appreciate that you cared enough that you were just there, and if I could ever repay that, then I will, I will be there for you whenever you need me." I said continuing from my last sentence.

"Thank you, I'm glad I can come to you" he said as he hugged my backside. 

After me and Jax had a few more delightful conversations, we fell asleep just like we were. I was thankful for him being there and even though I said it to him so many times, I think he still needs to know. At least now I know that I can always count on him. And I hope he knows the same.

But I can't feel anything for him.

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Hey amazing people, so a few chapters ago I said I would make it from someone else's point of view, well I forgot to do that. I will do it eventually I just don't know when. Anyways I hope you liked this chapter tell my if I made any mistakes I will gladly fix them. In the next chapter I will include Chase and the others. Hopefully. Speaking of Chase.

What do you think will happen between Jax and Kayla? Do you ship Kayla and Jax or Kayla and someone else? If so please tell in the comments, trust me if you tell me it will make the story more interesting. Also if you have any ideas for new character names I will gladly use them. Thanks for reading Byers.

Sincerely,
       Marissa
                      P.S. This is the last part of after the party. Yay.