Shut out

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Chapter 61

May 1, 2017
*Kayla's P.O.V*

"Why do you even care?! Last time I saw you was the worst day of my life and I don't even want to see you again!"

"That's not your decision, you're still a kid!"

"I've been making my own decisions ever since you and that monster left us!"

"Kayla just stop being so stubborn-"

"No! Stop trying to be my mom! Just because you screwed up my whole life doesn't mean that you can just waltz back  into it after 12 fucking years!"

Storming past the "she devil" I quickly grabbed my keys and got in the car. Driving to god knows where I held in my tears. I am not crying over this.

I had gotten to a stop light and closed my eyes. When I opened them I knew exactly where I was going.

10 minutes later...

It started raining on the way here, out of all days this is the day it started raining... thanks life.

Walking up the steps to the house I rethought everything. But when I got to the door and rang the door bell I knew this was where I needed to be.

 But when I got to the door and rang the door bell I knew this was where I needed to be

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She opened the door and didn't even have to ask why I was here. I was pulled into a hug and I closed my eyes taking in her smell and just everything.

"Where have you been? You haven't talked to anybody. So much changed, it's like you didn't even care." She pulled away looking at me, she looked me in the eyes, now I know I have to tell her everything.

"Is Luke here? If I'm going to tell you everything, he needs to be here too." She nodded and called Luke.

"What's up?" He asked happily then saw me and his expression changed. He gave me a bear hug making me remember the last time I saw him.

"Start talking." He said after pulling away. I began walking to the couch.

"You guys sure you want to know everything?" I questioned before telling them." I looked at Em once again.

"Okay. This morning, it was like my past coming back for me."

"What do you mean by that?" Luke asked looking confused.

"I mean my mom came back. These few weeks have been hell, so I shut myself out from all of you. Except for Aaron. My mom wants me to move in with her and my dad. I guess they got back together, and they want me to move in with them, Nick too." I almost gaged when I had to say dad, I can't believe any of this is actually happening.

"You're leaving something out, where exactly do they want you to move?" Em asked.

"New York." I whispered.

"No. Kayla they can't. Are you actually going to move there?" Em disagreed.

"I think I might have to. I don't know what else I can do. They might go to court. I can't deal with all of that."

"Why didn't you talk to us sooner?"

"Because when I was with Aaron he made me feel safe, and it's not only that but he made me feel like I didn't have to deal with all of these problems. I could just ignore everything else around me and be with him. And I'd know i would be ok."

"Well aside from this and us. Do you know what's been going on with the guys?" Em asked making the mood turn from glum to fun.

"No, what about them?" I questioned.

"I think you should find out on your own, but just a heads up. There's a good side to it and a bad side." I smiled then hugged both of them feeling better after talking to them.

"Thanks." I smiled.

"No problem, I'm glad you talked to us. Now go talk to the guys, especially Angie, they need it. The first week that you didn't talk to us, they had a meeting just to talk about what happened that night. It didn't really work out, that's why you should talk to them."

"Got it." I exited their house getting back into the car.

It's a Monday so I know that everybody is gonna be at school. Being late to first period shouldn't bother much. I got all of my partners changed, well at least when my partners were any of the guys or Angie. I hope that I didn't screw up my friendship with them that much.

I do miss them, I just didn't want any of them involved in my stupid family drama. I stuck with Aaron because he made me feel safe, I don't know maybe it was also because he didn't ask questions about that night or my family. And Nick, I don't even know if he's been hanging out with the guys, I haven't talked to him, I always talked to him before that night. It's like that night changed something, almost like a fight against the world and I had lost. I don't know, I'm not even thinking straight right now, all I know is that I have to make things better with everyone.

At school....

I walked into first period barely on time, hoping that I maybe would be able to fix my problems by sitting in my old seat. Although maybe I was wrong, my seat was taken by one of the guys that was on the soccer team, thanks a lot tommy.

I sat in the seat that I've been sitting in for he past few weeks since that day.

I looked over to Jax and Chase, they looked horrible, well Chase looked worse, but Jax, he looked perfectly fine. I mean it's not like I expected them to be balling their eyes out waiting for me to talk with hem again, or I don't really know what I expected.

After first period was over I was ready, ready to talk to them. But then as I walked up to them from behind, I couldn't do it, I felt like if I did, they wouldn't care and they wouldn't want to be my friends anymore.

Maybe I'll just wait. I don't think I'm ready for this yet. I'll probably break down in front of them if I do it right now.

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Sorry this chapter is short, or at least it feels short to me. I didn't have much time to write, I hate life  for that reason. Ignore my weird reason but anyways I'm still sorry I haven't updated, but I'm glad I did it today. Anyways as whatever his name said in the terminator, "I'll be back." Ok byee.

Sincerely,
        Marissa

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