The girl who was one of the guys

From soccer to brothers

Chapter 23

I woke up and instantly felt a horrible pain on my head. I don't know maybe it was because the face that I just tumbled off my bed. Ow this hurts like a bitch. I also remembered today is Friday so I still have school. Ugh, why can't this be over already.

I got up and went into my closet, I picked out a black muscle shirt crop top, a black and red checkered shirt, my black converse, and I can't forget my black leather jacket. I haven't been wearing it lately, the reason I like it so much is because Chase got it for me a long time ago and it reminds me of someone, it reminds me of my brother, no, not Nick but someone who I will eventually talk about, just I can't remember, I don't want to.

Away from that topic, I got my things and went out the door. Chase and I haven't been riding together, he has been getting rides but I don't know why we've been so distant from each other lately.
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I got to school and saw that Chase was waiting for me at the front gate of the school, he looks pissed, let's just hope it's not because of me. I'll never hear the end of it.

"Hey." I say happily walking up to him.

"You quit the soccer team, I thought we were in this together!" He shouted at me looking angry.

"Hey, why are you mad, I just don't feel like I want to do soccer this year." I said looking at him seriously.

"Kayla, why would you quit I thought you loved soccer I thought you wanted to play this sport, with me!" He said getting angrier.

"Chase, I'm sorry I just-" I began but was cut off by more of his stupid rambling, and yes I was starting to get mad, he shouldn't be yelling at me.

"No, I don't care if your sorry, you commited to the team, then you just quit, what's wrong with you, I thought you did this because it was special for you, I thought you did this because Brand-" I cut him off by yelling,

"Don't. You. Dare. Say his name, you don't get to. You have done enough, just leave me alone. Or better yet, don't even talk to me until you realize what you were just about to say, I can't believe you would do that, you were about to break me yet again, well guess what, I'm already broken, so don't yell at me, don't talk to me, don't even look at me right now. Gosh I can't believe you!!" I said really angry, I can't believe he could bring up that name right now.

"Kayla, I'm so-" he began but I didn't let him finish. Good thing the bell decided to ring right then and I raced towards a place where I could b e alone. I didn't care if I was skipping class I couldn't hold this in. I went where I knew no one could hear me.

I ran so fast I don't think I was breathing in the time being.

I ran to the middle of the football field, not the soccer field, the football field. I've always come here, I can just let everything go, plus it's never used. The school built another football field and use that one now so I can come here anytime.

I just sat down in the middle of the field and stared at the sky. I then fell to my back and laid down. Still looking at the sky.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!" I screamed letting everything out.

Gosh I feel so many emotions right now, I feel, anger, sadness, annoyed, depressed, anxiety, and for some reason the last emotion I can't quite find, I just know there's another emotion.

"Why does my life have to be so complicated! Huh, why did all this happen to me?!" I yelled to no one in particular. I guess I'm just mad at life right now.

"I'm so...so, ugh, I don't know anymore!" I yelled frustrated putting my hands to my head and tugging on my hair.

"I just need to say everything, I mean first of all, my parents are never home, but when they were something bad happened. Why, why did they have to leave, right when I needed them most, right when Brandon needed them most." I shouted then whispered the last part.

"The only people who know why this bugs me so much are Nick and Chase, and Chase did this, I'm feeling this way right now and it's his fault! Brandon died. I know that, but Chase just had to remind me." I said now talking to myself sadly, I was so quiet I was just so sad.

"I miss him, I miss him so much, he died and it feels like my fault." I said sitting up and pulling my legs to my chest. "Brandon was my person. He was basically me, he was a part of me, and a part of me is no longer here."

I can't take this anymore I just need to keep it off my mind even if it means looking at Chase, I need school to keep my mind off of this. When I walk into class I can just sit somewhere else. I'll be fine, everything is fine,  right?

I walked back into the hallway of school and got a tardy slip, I walked over to my first class and walked in.

Once I stepped inside I sad everyone's eyes on me. They all probably heard me and Chase arguing. Crap, now I have to deal with this, well it's better then dealing with other things like the whole Brandon thing.

Come on Kayla keep it together. I continued to my seat and realized that Chase was looking at me with sorry eyes. Of course he was sorry, he knows what he did was wrong, but that doesn't mean that I'm not mad at him. He had no right to bring up my brother.

"Hey Jax can I borrow your notes?" I asked as I looked over to my right at Jax.

"No, only if you-"

"Jax I'm not up for this today, just forget it." I said seriously.

I turned on my chair and looked back at Angie. "Hey Ange can I borrow your notes?" I asked as she looked up at me.

"Sure." She replied handing them to me.
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The whole day consisted of me trying to ignore Chase, Chase trying to talk with me, the rest of the guys trying to talk about Chase with me, and me just hanging with Angie.

I just wanted to leave, but at least I'm home now, it as now 10:08, I might as well just go to sleep.

Today has been a long day and all I can say is, thank god it's Friday (TGIF).

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Hello wonderful people, here's another update I hope you liked it, please comment your thoughts and corrections. I luv you all and I hope you like the way this turned out. I will make a chapter sometime in the future about Brandon and Kayla's parents. Anyways luv yas Byers.

Sincerely,
      Marissa