The girl who was one of the guys

Thoughts

Song: Broken Home

Artist: 5 Seconds Of Summer

I love this song so much, probably because I can relate to it in so many ways, but I hope you amazing people enjoy this chapter, ok...umm yeah...gosh I'm awkward.😂 enjoy! 🖤❤️

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Chapter 76

Jax's P.O.V.

"Yess!" She exclaimed, I felt happy to know she wanted to be anywhere near me. The way she ran over to me kept the wide smile on my face.
Her now slight weight on my back and the kiss on the cheek she gave me, made me want more, I wanted to just be alone.
We walked farther out towards the beach and as her arms wrapped around my neck from behind I leaned into her touch, hoping she didn't notice.
When she asked me to put her down, I didn't want to, I couldn't, it just felt so...right. She chuckled when I said I didn't want to, making it sound like a joke.
But eventually I had to put her down so I did, and we enjoyed the rest of the day together, even though the guys were there too.

I remembered the day we all went I the beach, and I gave Kayla a piggy back ride. Currently laying in my room and having nothing to do, I stared at the ceiling, but my thoughts drifted to her. I wasn't sure if she was mad at me or not.

I'll admit it, the most stupid irrational decision I've made, was hooking up with that random girl, the worst part about it, was that I didn't realize that it could hurt Kayla. Nor did I realize that it could affect our relationship- not that we had one -but that it could also affect my chance at having any type of relationship with her.

And then last night, I wanted to just hold her in my arms and stroke her hair, but she wouldn't let me. There are so many things that I wish could say to her. I want her to know how much I care about her, how much she means to me.

But now that I did something so stupid the other day, I don't even think she'll let me talk to her.

But I know that before the year ends I need her to forgive me, or at least let me say sorry.

Kayla's P.O.V

I lay in the bed I've been using for the past week. Just staring up at the ceiling, hoping that maybe something in my life will make sense to me. Like why do I have to have feelings?

That's the question I've been asking myself all morning. After last night, I couldn't get my mind off of him, Jax, of all people, why him?

That's not the only problem, he saw my father. He saw what was about to happen. What if he asks questions?

I have to stop thinking to much. I'm overthinking.

I got up from the bed and got dressed. Now wearing maroon tank top with an oversized gray sweater, and black leggings. I went out of the room and found Nick sleeping on the couch, with Chase and Blake on the floor.

I smiled at my brother and how peaceful he looked then proceeded to walk into the kitchen. I grabbed a cup from the cabinet and went to the fridge. Pulling out the orange juice I poured some into my cup. I jumped when I felt a hand on my exposed skin, because the sweater had drooped to the lower part of my arm.