I Don't Deserve Your Love

Chapter 15

"You may not eat, drink, speak or leave this room until the end of your detention. You are to sit in your chair in silence. Phones are prohibItted please leave them on the desk in the front." He directs his eyes and smirks. Of course Mr. O'Connor had to be taking dentention.

I walk over to the desk and drop my phone next to Ryan's. It seems it was only me and Ryan in detention. I slouch in my chair wishing for the time to pass quickly. Ryan hums annoyingingly behind me and taps his fingers against the wooden desks.

"Ryan, if I were you I would stop and sit in silence before you find yourself earning another dentention." Ryan immedietely stops, and I stiffle a chuckle. He was honestly doing his best to piss off the teacher.

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Walking out of the school after detention, Ryan asks "When's Vi coming home?"

"Later today. What do you to do when we get home?"

"Ummm. How about we try the car again?" He says hopefully. Seeing my face fall, "If you want to overcome this you have to practice. ALOT."

"Okay." I lean on his shoulder. We continue to walk in a comfortable silence.

When we reach home, I wait in the front yard while he parks his car in front of the house. Looking at the car, I feel slightly braver than normal. In the heat of the moment I quickly pull open the door and sit myself down. What the fuck was I doing? Ryan offs the car and pulls out the keys. The engine becomes silent.

I clench my fists, "No, just turn on the car." I shut the door and yank the seatbelt around me. Ryan takes my hand and turns the key. The sounds of the engine starting makes me feel nauseous but I ignore it.

I keep my eyes open and stare ahead. Breathing deeply,when I imagine the accident I push the thoughts out of my head and picture the times I went on a roadtrip with my family or when I had happy memories in a car. Ryan squeezes my hand, I turn my head towards him. I blink, and let my silent tears fall on to my lap. I sit frozen in my seat,my heart rate slowly increasing.

"Cas, think of all the happy memories."

Closing my eyes, I continue breathing slowly. I think about all the good times I had with my family and deny any thought of the accident from entering my head. I feel Ryan's soft thumb wiping away my tears. He holds my face, opening my eyes I see our lips are just brushing eachother. Our lips connect.

Breaking apart, "You can add that to one of your happy memories." He whispers.

I blush and chuckle. As if noticing my surroudings I tense up again. But then relax as I think of Ryan. Taking a gulp of air, I focus my mind on everything to do with Ryan.

Ryan twists the key, stopping the engine. I breathe freely and step out of the car. Ryan comes around and wraps an arm around my waist. "That was really good. You feeling okay?"

"Yeah. Much better. I feel stronger than last time. I didn't let myself think of the accident. "

"Good. Do you wanna go inside?"

"Yeah."

"Ohhh, How about we watch Pretty Little Liars?"

"Ha. I knew I'd get you into the show."

"Pffft. No. I'm just letting you have the choice of entertainment." He smiles.

"Yeah right." I grin knowingly.

I walk inside the house and sit on the sofa. Ryan jumps down next to me as I put on the the episode of PLL(Pretty Little Liars) we were up to . I grab my phone,checking it I see Vi sent me a text saying she'll be here in half-hour or so.