I Don't Deserve Your Love

Chapter 49

I mark my name in the visitor's book before turning around heading towards the courtyard. I had no idea what I was doing, maybe it was instinct. But now I knew that Brandon had hit Ryan, I had to see him. 

I rush across the courtyard, hurrying down the hallway until I see his room. The same drawings Nancy had were still stuck on the door, which for some reason was shut. 

I breathe out slowly before hesitantly knocking. I hear some rustling from inside the room as I gently push open the door. 

I gasp taking in the scene before me. Brandon was had a knife to Ryan's throat and one finger to his lips. He seemed surprised that I was the person at the door but he kept his stance.

"Shut the door and don't make one sound." I step in to the room gently shutting the door. 

"What the hell are you doing?!"  I say my voice shaking.

"I think it's pretty self explanatory" Brandon glared at Ryan. I go to step forward.

"Don't move." He presses the knife tighter against Ryan's throat. I notice a bead of blood against Ryan's skin.

I freeze, "What are you doing...put the knife down Brandon." I don't know what the hell was going on but something in Brandon seemed to have snapped. I'd never this side of him.

"Finishing what I started. Like you said, I crashed into Ryan."

"What you started....?"

"Babe, you really don't think it was an accident right?!" 

"Don't call me that. " I snap taking a step forward.

"Stop right there." He says lowly pressing the silver blade tighter against Ryan's pale skin. I stop in my steps swallowing nervously looking at the knife. There was no way I could get any closer. And I had nothing to defend myself against him.

I look to the side and near the door I see the familiar call button that can be used by visitors if a patient attacks. The irony struck clear to me, even now.

I mentally tried to measure the distance between the button and myself, I'd have to be subtle about it. It was only a foot and a half away. 

"So you're telling me it wasn't an accident...?" I question slowly shifting my feet backwards. 

"Oh wow. You really are clueless. Ryan do you always choose such naive girlfriends?!" Ryan gritted his teeth. "Oh I forgot, you can't talk." He chuckles menacingly. I clench my fists so desperately wanting to connect my fist to his jaw. He takes my silence as a encouragement to continue talking. "Let me explain it to you Cas. The car accident wasn't an accident." He grins. "How crazy is that?" He snickers. " You see, I hit Ryan. For one reason and one reason only. But of course this bugger was like some pesky fly." He continues to laugh like a maniac.  

I go to open my mouth. "Shut your mouth and listen or I will slit his throat." My breath catches in my throat as I nod continuing to subtlety  move backwards

"Where was I? Oh yes. He was like someone annoying bug. So killing him wouldn't work. So...you can guess what I did next? Or can you? I'm surprised you didn't figure it out a bit earlier."

"You....you murdered Vi." Saying the words to myself sounded to foreign. But I didn't question it anymore.  "You framed him." My voice cracks as I look to Ryan who was looking at me pleadingly.

"Ding ding ding. 5 points to Gryffindor." He didn't even deny it. 

"But..."

"Let me guess. You want to know why? Well see for some reason I'm drawn to you. Call it love. And this entire time you've been pining over this idiot.  I mean I tried to kill Ryan but but the pesky bugger didn't kick the bucket so I thought if I could just remove him from your life it'd work. But now I can see that as long as this twit is alive you'll always love him." I look to Ryan as he says that closing my eyes. How could I have been so fucking stupid.

"All this love. You barely know me."

"Let's just say I get attached easily." He smirks. "Now, how to finish the job. It's a difficult decision you see. I could end it all in one second or let him suffer. Like your aunt. What do you think Cas?"

By now my face was littered with tears. I peer besides me the button was right there in my reach. I see the vein in Ryan's neck bulging against the knife. His eyes were frantically glancing around.

I stare silently at Brandon as he was staring at me with a calculated act in his eyes. "No answer. You know it really is satisfying hold life and death in one's hands."  Brandon looks at the knife as he removes it from Ryan's throat moving it behind Ryan. I couldn't see the knife but I knew it was pressed to Ryan's back. It was almost like I could feel it myself. 

Brandon looks down to the knife as if he was positioning it against Ryan's back. I take it as my chance smashing my hands against the button silently.  I look up quickly, Brandon hadn't noticed I had moved.

I gasp for breath as I try to look calm. Brandon looks up peering at me. I could see him analysing my expression, his eyes peer to the wall and just as the realisation comes to his eyes I rush forward to Ryan. 

And I hear an agonising scream ripping through the air. It came from Ryan. After all these months this was the first sound I'd heard from him since the accident.

I immediately see Ryan fall forward hitting his head harshly against the metal edge of the bed post.I scream in pain. The crimson liquid creating a small but growing pool of blood around him already. I collapse to the ground to hold Ryan as he shudders in my shaking hands.

Brandon stood above him grinning as if proud of himself. He was still holding the knife in his hand. I clutch Ryan in my hands looking up at Brandon. His tall figure made an intimidating blurry shadow above me as I couldn't see clearly. 

I look down to Ryan stroking his head noticing a cut on his head which had a bump beginning to swell already.  I close my eyes whispering to him gently. "You're gonna be okay." I cry frozen with him in my arms.

I look up at the monster in front of me with my expression full of hate and pain. "Say bye baby."  Brandon whispers softly and I feel a thudding pain in the side of my head as everything goes black.

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