I Don't Deserve Your Love

Chapter 25

Uneditted-Sorry.

"He can't talk. What? How?" Drake asks.

"They think, it's the brain damage. But he needs to have an MRI first." She says. I close my open mouth. Everyone was staring at me waiting for a reaction. I bit the inside of my cheek.

"Is it long term?" I ask desperately. She shrugs sorrowfully and shakes her head before sitting down with Nancy. I nod silently. He couldn't talk. The words were taking a while to sink in. I had had too many shocks in the last 12 hours. This was one to many. I step back and sit down.

A small part of me was relieved that he was alive and everythig g else was fine. But the rest of me was panicking, he couldn't talk. I had so many questions that were going through my head. But all I wanted to do was take back the last day. If I had just made sure he stayed with me, he wouldn't have gotten into a crash.  I feel a tear slide down my cheeks. I hadn't been there and now he is stuck in hospital with possible long term speech loss. What the fuck had I done.

"When will we be able to see him?" Laila asks softly.

"I'm not sure. Later this evening perhaps. You should go home." She says turning to Emily,Drake and Laila. They look ready to protest. "I know you don't want to leave. But your parents must be worried. Just have a shower and rest a bit. You can come back later. I'll give you a ring, when you can see him." Drake, Emily and Laila exchange wary looks but finally nod.

"Okay. But call as soon as we can visit. We'll be back later this evening." Laila says. Drake nods his head and gives me a quick hug before going. Laila copies him giving  me a small smile bfroe eaving.

"Give me a call if you need me okay." Emily asks softly. I nod. She hands me a mini pack of tissues from her bag before leaving.

Vi stands up. I look at her in alarm. "Are you leaving?" I ask.

"I think I will. I'll be back in a few hours." She looks to Madeline. "Would you like me to take Nancy home for a bit Madeline?" Madeline looks relieved.

"Yes. Thank you, I'll carry her to the car, she's falling alseep again." Vi gives me a kiss on the forehead. My heart aches as I'm reminded of Ryan and how he used to do it all the time.

"I'll be back soon, I promise."

"Okay." I sink into my seat as they both walk away. I hated this place. The long corridors and hallways. The antiseptic smell. The bright lights and the plain white doors with patients everywhere. It scared me. How cold I be a nurse If I hated the hosptial?

I hear footsteps walking towards me. It was Brandon who looked liked he had been running. I sit up looking at him. "I heard what happened." he says sitting next to me.

"Why are you here?" I ask confused, not giving a fuck if I was rude.

"Ryan and I may not be on good terms at the moment. But we are still good mates. And I thought I should see how you're doing. What's happened? Is he okay?" He asks. There was something in his eyes that made me want to question him but I stopped myself from bombarding him with them.

"Not exactly. He's alive." His eyes widen when I say that. "But, he lost his ability to speak. They aren't sure if it is long term. He's having a MRI right now." More tears are falling down my face by now.

He seems to be deep in thought. "Whoa. I'm so sorry Cas." He wipes his thumbs against my cheek reminding me of Ryan again and I shut my eyes tight. When I open them, I realise he is still flushed and sweating.

"Why are you so tired and puffed out?" I ask confused trying to get rid of the awkwardness.

"I walked...half ran here." He says.