I Don't Deserve Your Love

Chapter 29

Three weeks later (Yep, another time skip cause I'm a lazy ass.....XD)

"I'm so happy he's coming home." I squeal as I sit on Ryan's bed.

"I know, I'm sick of that hospital." Laila says dumping water bottes into the mini fridge. "Oi, don't laze around. You're the one who wanted his room to be cleaned up before he came. "

"Ooops. Sorry. Anyway his room looks clean enough."

Laila rolls her eyes, "Okay then. When is he coming? I want to say hello before I head off home. I have a date with Flynn!"

"Ooh. You better tell me everything after." I demand lying on the bed then jumping up. "Urghh, I need to change."

"No you need a shower, your all sweaty from cricket practice."

"What?! I couldn't skip. The finals are almost here so I had to go. I am sick of these practices, they weren't so bad with Ryan. But now they just tire me out. " I whine.

"Just go have a shower. You have any clothes to change into? You can not wear that, it reeks."

"Shat." I frown. "Wait, I think I might have some clothes in his cupboard." I walk over and find some spare clothes. "Knew it! I'll  be back soon."

"Take your time, ya stink." She jokes.

"Oh shut up." I say walking into the bathroom and shutting the door.

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The knocking on the door has me jumping and running down the stairs. "Hey." I smile brightly as Ryan is perched on his crutches. "Sorry I didn't visit today, I had cricket practice and I wanted to have...." Ryan stops my rambling by leaning and kissing me. I smile against his lips. "I know, I'm rambling. Oh Laila had to leave. She was going to wait. But she has a date." I laugh while wiggling my eyebrows.

I hear Madeline coming up the steps, "Hello Cas. Do you mind if I go over and get Nancy from her sitter? it shouldn't take long"

"Course. I'm making a special welcome home dinner, so don't worry about making dinner."

"Aww okay. Thanks hun. Behave Ryan Cas isn't your nurse. Even though i know she'll be waiting hand and foot on you. Okay bye, be back soon." She leaves shutting the door.

"Do you want to rest upstairs?" Ryan shakes his head. "Well I'm just about to start cooking. Do you want to rest on the sofa?" He shakes his head again and points at me. "Kitchen?" He nods. "Okay."

I walk through into his kitchen as he follows behind. "You sure you don't wanna rest?" He rolls his eyes smiling. "Just checking. I'm making you some real food. Hospital food sucks, and you've been on it for three weeks. Did you want something from you bag?" I asked Ryan who had been staring at it.

He nods. I bend down an pick it up, " Do you want your notebook?" He nods and holds the bag before pulling out his drawing pad along with his notepad. "Oh you're gonna sketch. Okay. Just tell me if you want anything. Madeline's right, I'll be waiting on you hand and foot."

I walk behind the counter as Ryan sits himself on a stool. Taking out the pasta sheets, I pull out the rest of the groceries I had brought from my house. "I'm making LASAGNA!! Man, I love lasagna. I used to have it all the time with Naomi. It was the best." I say smiling fondly at the memories.

You sound like garfield.

"Oi, I am not a fat cat."

Garfield loves lasagna, you love lasagna. I see a resemblence.

I scowl at him. "Asshole." I mutter.

You know you love me. He smirks.

"Okay, stop. You watch wayy to much gossip girl." I laugh.

You're the one to blame. You showed me the show in the first place. Who knew it was so addicting.

"Okay, you sound like Laila when I finally got her to watch an episode."

I do NOT sound like Laila.

"You did there." I giggle. "Now let me concentrate. I just picked up the plastic layer thinking it was a pasta sheet." I mentally face palm myself before continuing to cook dinner.

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"It's ready." I slowly take heavy dish into the dining room. Madeline and Nancy enter the room before sitting down.

"It looks delicious Cas. Thank you for making it."

"No problem."

"Has Ryan gone to bed or something?"

"No, he must still be in the kitchen. You can start eating, I'll go get him." I walk back into the kitchen to see Ryan still bent over his book. I silently walk up behind him and look over his shoulder. He had been drawing me while I was chopping the vegetables. The intricate lines were traced softly on the page as he continued to draw my hands holding the knife. "Ryan." He turns his head to me and smiles. "Dinner's ready." he nods before slowly standing up, I notice his slight wince. "Have you had your medication? You can have it after dinner." He follows behind me into the dinng table and sits down.

"So Cas, you have cricet practice tommorrow don't you?" Madeline asks.

" Uhh yeah. I do actually." I try to smile enthusiastically but failed miserably. Practices had been terribly boring without Ryan.  " I'm excited for Ryan to be back on the team."

"Well he'll have to catch up on training won't he?"

"Yeah, though he should be fine."

"Hmmm, This tastes yummy Cas." Nancy smiled gulping down a glass of water.

"She's right. It tastes amazing. "

After dinner I notice Ryan is beginning  to look tired. "Ryan, you should go to bed? Did you want help...?" Madeline asks him.

"I'll help him with everything." He nods and stands up slowly. I grab his notebook and pen but leave his drawing book on the kitchen table before helping him slowly up the stairs. We make it to his room as he rests against the wall weakly. I give him some clothes. " Did you need some help?" He shakes his head and walks over to the other side of the room before unchanging. I look away blushing.

He settles down in his bed breathing heavily as he puts his head down on his pillow. I sit next to him, " I gotta go clean up dinner and go home cause I got school tomorrow. I'll visit in the morning before I start walking." I peck his lips quickly before standing up, his hand grabs mine. I can tell by the look in his eyes he wants me to stay until he falls asleep.

I turn off his bedside lamp and lie down next to him gently. I hear his heavy breaths after a few minutes and slowly walk back downstairs into the kitchen. Madeline had cleaned up all the dishes. I notice the drawing book I had left on the counter and curiosity comes over me as I open it and look at the other images. Many of them were of me, they were all beautifully done. I then noticed some which I had never seen before.

Instead of the lines being drawn gently, these were harsh dark lines drawn out of anger. He had drawn the accident. The last picture had dark figures and was shaded darkly in places, I couldn't tell what it was. I snapped the book shut, feeling as if I wasn't meant to see them. I placed the book back on the counter before leaving the room quickly.

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Sorry this chapter was short and sort of sucked. The video at the top has nothing to do with this book it was just a feeble attempt at a unsuccessful joke.... XD

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-Imeshi