Gravity

Chapter 23

"What are you doing up?" His voice rasped full of sleep breaking through my thoughts.

"Shit! David you scared me!" I hissed.

"I didn't mean to. What are you doing?" He tilted his head ever so slightly to the right arching his brow as I took a drag of my cigarette.

"Couldn't sleep."

"That simple huh?"

"Yeah."

"Scoot over and hand me one of those." He said as he made his way next to me in the bay window. "No. wait just a moment. I know what can make this even better."

He disappeared for a few minutes only returning with a glass bottle.

"Times like this require a little Johnnie Walker."

"Oh I don't know about all that..." I trailed off.

"What's the matter? Scared? Now scoot."

"David... I...." I took another drag turning to look out his window. The solitude before now gone. Not that I didn't want him there...just sometimes in heavy moments I needed time with myself to process.

"What is it Joss?"

I turned back to him taking time to absorb his sexiness. The wrinkles in his forehead letting me know he was getting frustrated waiting for me to answer him, to his beautiful lips wrapping around his cigarette, and last but not least his icy blue eyes penetrating through the darkness straight into my soul leaving me breathless. He was ruthless in his power over me but all at the same time clueless. He could bring me to my knees in a heartbeat but a part of me still wanted to resist him.

"I'm waiting..."

"I don't need to drink that."

"Why not. You have before."

"I know, but I tend to be careless with it at times."

"Who hasn't been in their life at one point or another?" He arched his brow again taking another drag not grasping what I was trying to tell him.

"I try not to drink the heavy stuff....beer I can do, mostly on special occasions....but I try my best to steer clear of it all. Here lately though I haven't been doing so well with it."

"Is there a reason?"

"I have abused it in the past. I at one point completely let it take over me and my life. I don't want to do it again."

"Oh. Ok. I'm sorry.." he paused unsure of what to do or say next.

"Don't be."
He sat the bottle down on the floor behind him.

"Don't feel like you can't drink because of me. I'm fine really."

"Is that what the cigarette is for?"

"Mostly."

"So what's on you're mind." He asked again.

"Honestly? Us mostly. Like where we go from here? We live on two completely different continents, have two completely separate lives....I just don't know how we stay together you know?"

"We can sort it all as we go, but have you ever considered moving here at all?"

"You mean like in with you?"
I didn't mean to let it slip but I couldn't hold it in. I laughed.

"Is something funny?" He asked tagging another slow drag.

"Dude you seriously don't want to live with me."

"Dude. Why is that?" He asked mockingly.

"David" I sighed "Trust me when I say this....but living together would never work. For one we are just making a go of this. We need to take it slow before one of us uproots our entire life and two....ask Amy. I am not the easiest of people to live with."

"Oh really?" He challenged.

"Really."

"Care to tell me or do I really have to ask her? Because she honestly frightens me a little bit, but don't tell her I said that."

"Both of ya want." I laughed

"Ok. Shoot."

" From the looks of things around here you are very.....tidy. And I well....not so much. Did you not pay attention when you were at our house?"

"Well yeah...I just assumed maybe..."

"Nope. That's what it always looks like. Clothes everywhere, me forgetting my day with the dishes...leaving my stuff in random places...list goes on and on"

"Ok so you're not moving in....what about cutting your work schedule to part time so you can spend more time here?"

"What about you traveling? You're away more than not."

His silence was not a comforting feeling.

"Joslyn..."

"See this isn't going to work David. What are we doing?"

"I don't like this back and forth with you. You are either in this or not, but this back and forth I will not do it." He said sternly.

"I know I just...."

"No. You either know or you don't. Yes or no. It's that simple."
This was David in control. A side I had heard about but was now getting to experience some myself.
I took the last drag of my cigarette before reaching down for the bottle he sat on the floor.

"One sip won't hurt." I said taking off the top and turning the bottle up.

He sighed before getting up from the window.

"Come here."
He took my hand pulling me close into him. His bare chest was smooth and warm not to mention hard with muscles under my touch.

"What are we doing?"

"Close your eyes and feel this moment then pick a song that fits."

His hands gripped my waist sending goosebumps all over when he would graze his thumb across my skin.
I racked my mind thinking of our situation and all I was putting him through to find something fitting when it hit me like a ton of bricks. I popped open my eyes to meet his watching me intently.

"I got it.....Jessie Ware. Say You Love Me."
A smile played softly on the corner of his lips as he reached in his pajama bottoms for his phone.

"Do you ever seperate yourself from that thing?" I teased.

"Hush." He messed around a minute before putting it back in his pocket when the song filled the room softly.

He pulled me even closer into him if it were even possibly and swayed us slowly to the song that fit everything in this moment.

"She's right you know? Even though it's a little late for me." He whispered in my ear.
I pulled back a little to look up into his gorgeous blue eyes.
"I want this" he continued. "I know you do too. Please don't make me beg. I'm not a begging man but I will for you."
I rested my head on his chest as we continued to dance.
"Ok.  I'm in." I said quietly after a few minutes.

"Really?" He sounded surprised.

"I am. Just please have patience with me. "

"Whatever you need. I'll do it."

"Ok"

His lips crashed to mine. Gently at first but soon growing with hunger. He kissed along my jaw down my neck to my collarbone. I could no longer breathe. I wanted...no needed this man. As scared as I was to admit it he completed me in ways I never imagined.

"David...."I rasped.

"I got you baby." He assured me before laying us on the floor. He was slow and passionate. I had never felt so loved and cared for than I did in that moment. I could feel our relationship shifting but in a good way. As the outside world moved on around us...this moment...just us...was everything I needed and more to prove to myself  I was in love with David. And there was no going back.