Gravity

Chapter 27

( ok so I know this update has been forever...this pregnancy is honestly kicking my butt but I'm about to the finish line and hopefully the updates will come faster with some time off! Hope you enjoy and sorry for the wait!!)

It had been over four weeks since anyone had last seen or spoken to Joslyn. Over four weeks that I have lost my mind. I took another drink from whatever number bottle I was on only to see it was now empty as well as the others. Pissed off, I threw it across the room just to watch it shatter into a million pieces just as I felt. I stood up from my sofa to run downstairs to fetch myself a bottle of the good stuff.  Stepping in and clicking on the light to my office I could have sworn I saw her standing there just as she had months before. She was everywhere. She had tainted my once sanctuary to a place I now hated to be in. She was all I saw in every room. Sighing I quickly grabbed a bottle of scotch before slamming the door shut and heading back upstairs. I turned on the song she had texted me a little over a week ago before she shut her phone off.
"I hate you , I love you. I hate that I love you. Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you." played over and over in my living room.  I chugged down half the bottle when something just snapped and I lost my shit. Everything was flying off my shelves...books, trinkets, pictures off the wall....rage consumed me. I turned my couch over, threw the lamp across the room for it to hit the tv I had bought Joss for when she came back home to London after my holiday. It immediately went to white noise from the contact. I didn't give a shit anymore. I didn't understand what was happening or what had happened while I was gone. Why wouldn't she contact me? Where was she for crying out loud! She disappeared without a trace. No one from her work had heard from her, not one of her friends....no one. I slumped down to the floor in the middle of my disaster resting my head in my hands. I was at my wits end. I couldn't do this. Not without her.
I was mid another swig just as my front door opened. My heart leapt out of my chest in hopes it was her but quickly crashed when I saw Larry and Amy making their way through the chaos.

"What the fuck man?" Larry shouted above the music. "Turn that shit off and talk to me."

"Fuck you." I spat.

"So that's how it's going to be?" He asked as he crossed the room to turn the music down. "What are you doing man? This isn't helping anyone. Especially Joslyn."

"You don't know shit!"

"I know that you are about to loose a couple of jobs because someone is too shit faced to show up and do their damn job! Look around you David!! What are you doing?"

"David." Amy gently tried. "Talk to us. We want to help."

"I just don't get it. Why? Why is she doing this?" I took one more swig before setting the bottle down running my hands through my hair.

"I don't know. I don't know what has happened but whatever it is...it has to be bad for her to just leave. I'm not trying to scare you but..."

"I know."

"What's with this song? A little girly isn't it?" Larry jumped in "And why is it on repeat?"

"It's Joss. We had this thing....we would always send each other songs about how we felt or something that related to our situation and this was the last one I got from her a little over a week ago."

"Wait? What?" Amy asked in disbelief as the color drained from her face.

"What? What is it?" I asked panic now taking over.

"Well a little over a week ago I got a song title text to me from some random number. I just assumed it was a wrong number since it wasn't in my phone and I never heard anything else from them."