The Other Girlfriend

Doubtful

Jenny’s POV

                After a wonderful date in Little Rock, I texted Harry about his plans and he was apparently busy today.  He texted me he was at a Dames and Dukes rehearsal to work on their first show coming up in a few weeks.    Callie is also absent as usual before I even wake up.  I know she liked to work out in the mornings, so I’m not surprised at that.  Sarah and her suitemate are also gone back home, so I text the only person I who for sure should be on campus still which is Niall.

                I text Niall about going to his room to play guitar and he instantly accepts the proposal.  I grab my guitar case and my keys and I head out my dorm.  I’m not sure why Harry bails on me at least once a weekend, but he always does.  Sometimes, it’s Dames and Dukes other times he wants to be with his gang.  I mean I’m glad Harry has a life outside of me, but I sometimes wonder why it has to happen every single weekend.  Maybe I’m just really paranoid.

                Paranoid of what though?  I can’t put my finger on what I think he’s actually doing besides what he says he is doing.  I don’t think Harry would lie to me.  He hasn’t given me a reason why I would think that, but I can’t help but wonder some days.  Harry has my trust.  He’s been sweet and understanding since day one.  I know he wishes I was bit more aggressive on the sexual side, but I’m new to these experiences and I’m trying my best to be like him and do what he wants. 

                Is it the fact that I’m so reluctant on giving myself out entirely when we’re interlocked that makes him not there all the time?  I could see it, but I can’t imagine him wanting to be distant because of that.  It seemed if he had a problem, he could just tell me.  We haven’t had any major conflict, but I know my low self-esteem and my reluctance disturb him.  I just don’t hope it’s not enough for him to drastic in ways unimaginable to me.  I really like Harry and I didn’t want to lose him. 

                I enter the boys’ dorm and I head to the suite where Niall should be waiting for me.  There are very few people since almost everyone either used this weekend as a mini vacation or they’re back home.  I walk down the hall where they’re located and I knock on the door.  Niall opens the door and gives me a big smile.

                “Hey, Jenny.  Come on in!”  He lets me in and I sit on Harry’s desk chair.  The room is semi-tidy as Harry’s side is spotless while Niall is a huge mess.  “Sorry for my mess, I haven’t gotten around to it.” He apologized.

                “Don’t worry about it.  I’m sure our room has been worse at times.”  I admit.  “Did you hear about Zayn’s engagement?”

                “Yeah, crazy stuff.  I’m so happy for him though.  He’s a lucky lad.  I hear they’re using this weekend to do some initial planning and then a few weekends from now, they do things like filling out bridal registries and looking at dresses and suits.  I can’t wait for the wedding.  I think it’ll be lovely.”  Niall said happily.

                “Yeah, I was hoping to hang out with Harry today, but apparently he’s busy, so that’s why I’m here.”  I smiled.

                “He’s a busy lad.  I hardly even see him anymore by the time he’s dating you and he’s in Dames and Dukes and he likes to hang out with other lads.  He’s always been the type to quite the extrovert even though he’s an introvert at heart.”  He observed.

                “What do you mean by that?” I asked him.

                “Well, he loves meeting new people and hanging out with them, but you notice he never tells you everything about himself.  He is always trying to have close relationships with several people.  It’s just who he is.  He will always be more concerned about his friends than himself.  He’s a people person, but he wants to have a more intimate relationship with them like you would see in an introvert.”  Niall explained.  Niall was always a big goofball most of the time, but I remember he can have his serious and heartfelt moments too.  He really cares for Harry, I have always seen that.