The Struggles in Life

My Sanity

Running for my life,

Running away from all of this evil and temptations, 

But my demons are hunting me down,

Taking away every bit of my happiness I have,

But one of my biggest mistakes were when I stopped,

I stopped to get my breath back,

But when I stop my demons caught me,

They tackled me to the ground,

I went down fighting,

I got up and started to run again,

Running with eyes full of tears,

I didn't realize what way I was running,

I was going back the way I came,

The past

 I could fix my  mistakes if I go this way,

Well that's what I thought at least,

 But going back this way put me in a cage,

You can't fucking change the past,

But I kept going back,

Doing this is like locking your heart up for safe keeping but giving the key to the devil,

How could I be so fucking stupid,

I'm in this cage now,

And no way out,

There is only to keys to my heart,

and they belong to God and the Devil,

God can only help me if  I trust him,

But I can't trust him,

I'm so scared trusting God means I might lose more things important people or things,

Trusting my God  means i lose my demons,

My demons have been with me forever,

as much as they hurt and torture me,

I don't think I would be able to live without them,

I know my demons and voices are killing me,

But losing them would killing me faster,

These negative things, the bad days,

is  what keeps me alive

My demons are what keeps me sane