The Struggles in Life

Just a"Normal" Girl

I'm just a "Normal" Girl

Why do I feel so bad,

I am dealing with the same everyday shit,

Nothing new,

So why does it still hurt?

Why do I wnt attention?

But why doI hate I at the same time?

I am just a "normal" teenage girl,

A normal girl with depression,

A normal girl with anxitey,

A normal girl with a eating disorder,

Huh...

Well, that doesn't sound normal,

Look around everybody is laughing and smiling,

And well me..

I'm just sitting here in everyday sorrow,

I'm a girl who is trying,

Trying to make it another day,

Trying not to break down in tears,

Trying to eat a meal without feeling guilt,

Trying to live up to lifes standerds,

That's not going to work though,

It's not going to work because i'm not rich,

I'm not popular,

I'm not beautiful,

I'm just the fat ugly unwated freak,

Don't fucking tell me it's going to be okay,

I've felt like this for seven years,

And don't tell me i'm strong,

We both no that it's not true,

We both no you would be better if I left,

And it would be doing everyone a favor,

I'm just a clingy jealous tick,

I  bring people down,

I make matters worse,

I mean look around,

I am trying so hard to not cry,

Trying so hard to stop myself from shaking,

Your just sitting here alone,

Everybody talking laughing haveing fun,

Expect me,

Like i've said I am just the girl nobody notices until they need something,

And when I give them my all it's still not enough,

I'm sorry,