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Poetry

My book is full of my thoughts. There is some positive in here you just have to find it. But this book is my thought, my feelings, my rants

The battle

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by lonelylostgirl

by lonelylostgirl

The battles began,

I'm lost inside my head,

Can't seem to hear or think good things,

My demons are winning,

I forgot how it feels to be free,

I hear death is amazing,

I can't find a reason why it isn't,

Pills spill on the floor,

One by one I swallow them,

1,2,3, then I made a cut or two,

4,5,6, I start smiling knowing it's going to be over,

7,8,9,10, I cut deeper as the pills start kicking in,

finish of this bottle now,

My world is spinning,

And pain is all over my body,

Haven't eaten in days and mixing it with a bottle of pills is fun,

I fall to the floor,

My light is fading,

My demons start to creep around me whispering "you lost",

I laugh to my self no I didn't,

I am gasping for air as my breathes get shorter and shorter,

Breathing in what I know is my last breath i'll ever take,

I smile because it's finally over,

The pains gone,

I hadn't lost,

But I have won