The Struggles in Life

Depression

I can't do this,

I try to smile,

I try to laugh,

I try to be what you wanted me to be,

I just can't be that person,

It's not truly me,

I'm not reliable,

I'm like a rock,

And if you throw me out into the water i'll snik,

I'm that jagged edge you always cut yourself with,

I'm your pain,

The disappointment,

Don't search for happiness in me,

You'll never find it,

Suicide notes written,

Hidden with my razor,

My pills,

It's wrapped it my sorrow,

My tears,

My blood,

But still here I sit,

smiling ,

Laughing,

While I'll await for the pills,

The razor,

To carry me away.