The words suicide scare me now,
I never realized how many people actually care,
Did I make a mistake saying things/
Yes,
But I can learn from what was lost and what was gained,
Lost is still unsure,
I may have lost my best friend from my mistakes,
But I gained others where it is was good or bad I gained it,
I gained being referred to mental help,
As much as it scares me,
Maybe it can help,
I have to see the positive,
I threw away my pills and blades,
I'm trying to improve,
Not for others but for myself,
I am doing this because because nobody can save me but myself,
people won't be there forever,
And I realized something,
Yea,
As much as I am hurting myself,
It is probably hurting other just as bad or worse,
I often think I deserve this pain,
When others think the opposite,
This frighting experience that happened today helped open my eyes,
People do care,
As much as I deny it,
As much as I try to deceive myself,
Deep down I know the truth,
Today wasn't the best,
But then again it wasn't my worse,
I just let fear control me,
But I need to be in control,
As a friend told me,
Smell the roses,
And blow out the candles,

YOU ARE READING
The Struggles in Life
PoetryMy book is full of my thoughts. There is some positive in here you just have to find it. But this book is my thought, my feelings, my rants