The Struggles in Life

Will to Survive

Once again I am running away,

I can't handle this pain,

I run in hide in my secret place,

My mind,

Nobody can hurt me here but myself,

But I made a mistake,

I looked back,

Seeing all of my old mistakes,

My flaws,

Everything wrong I have done,

I see the blood seeking out of my skin,

I start to shake,

And I lose control over my self,

My light of life is flickering,

Do I take the chance to fix the light,

Or let it burn out for ever?

The choice is mine,

But I can't decide,

So I just sit,

I breath entering my deeper thoughts,

trying to find a will to survive,

A will to find a way,

I can't find it,

I'm running out of time,

My life is darkening,

My effort is dying, 

I search for the door before it's to late,

I found it,

I run to it with eyes full of tears,

Body trembling,

I reach to open it locked,

I can't open this door anymore,

The door to my past,

I have to find another escape,

Before my last breath escapes me,

The window is the only way I can see,

It's a scary dark way down,

But at the end there's a light,

I need to do this I can't stay in this burning building any longer,

I jump,

I fall to the ground praying for God to save me,

I land it,

Losing my balance I fall,

I'm still alive,

I need to get up and keep going,

It looks like a long difficult path,

I need to use another source of light to find my way,

I'm calling for you Jesus,

Light my way,

Hold me in my darkest,

Take my hand and walk down this path of life with me I can't do it alone,

I may stray,

Or fall behind,

But I will always come around,

You are my will to survive