The Struggles in Life

Isolation

I want to isolate myself away from everybody,

Away from everything,

I want to stop hurting those I love,

But the only way to do that is if I leave them,

I sound selfish saying this but I don't want to lose them,

But the truth is they matter more,

Put others before yourself,

Well i'm going to try to do this for a change,

My darling already said she was leaving me,

So that makes it different,

I only have about four other people to leave now,

My role models,

My guy friend,

And myself,

My darling would be added in this list but she left,

I leaving everybody and everything that hurt me,

But I can't seem to get away from myself,

What the fuck am I doing?

I'm like a puppy chasing it's tell,

Getting no where,

Crying I grab the pills,

Staring at them<

Fuck this isn't going to work,

I put the pills back,

Thinking to myself as I get ready for school,

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Sorry I can't ever express my thoughts or the way I feel,

I'm trying to stay breathing,

And I'm trying not to hurt you,

And i'm trying to help you,

This is all confusing,

I'm trying,

but i'm on the edge of giving up