Hold On Tight: 'Never let go'

"If you love her you'll let her go"

*Kate's P.O.V*

Jess came into the room, her face was pale and she was holding a brown notebook. What? I actually missed Jess. She was one of my best friends. If we argued we wouldn't talk for like 2 hours and then we'd be acting like nothing has ever happened. But she took it to the point when I actually thought she was dead to me, it really hurt knowing that my boyfriend ex-boyfriend, could have cheated on me with her.

"Kate I want you to read through these, but read them when you get home." She handed me the book and I stood up.

"Thanks... what is it?" I narrowed my eyebrows. "You'll see when you read it at home, it will explain everything." She put her hands in her oversized hoodie. As I walked to the door Jess called after me. "Kate... how about you stay for a while? We can catch up." Is she crazy? She can't make my boyfriend cheat on me and then ask me if I could stay to 'catch up'. No that's not how life works.

"Jess, I still think you made Justin cheat on me, just because you handed me this notebook didn't prove anything." I sighed and put my coat on. "Right... I understand." She sighed and put her head down. I bit the inside of my cheek and walked towards her wrapping my arms around her shoulders. "But no matter how bad you could have made this situation look, or how bad you have hurt me, you will always be my best friend regardless." I kissed her cheek.

"I just need time." I look into her brown orbs. "Here, do me a favour." I bit the inside of my cheek. "Yeah?" her voice squeaked. "I have a gig tomorrow and I want you to be there alright?" I release my grip of her as she nods her head. "Oh, and I miss you too." I walked to the door turning the handle and walking out.

I sat in my car and fished my phone out, to see 3 new messages.

Lover Boy: "Hey, I just got off my plane. I'm in London and I just want to say that I miss you already. I hope I can still see you when I come back."

I smile at the text and reply: "Aw I miss you too; of course you can see me." I press 'send' and move onto the next one.

Scooter: "Hey Kate I saw the video of you singing at that gig last night. I never knew you have such an amazing voice. I was thinking if you want to come by to the studio and work on some music with my new artist Ariana Grande? She thinks your voice is amazing and she really wants to work with you, she will be giving you a phone call tonight."

My eyes widened at the text. Ariana Grande wants to work with me!? This is one of the best days of my life. But I'm just worried I will see Justin... you know. Scooter is his manager and Justin isn't far from him. I sigh, I won't reply to this text, I will just wait for Ariana to call me and then we will see what I could do.

As I moved onto my next text I felt my stomach turn, I gripped the wheel as my eyes widened.

Mom: "Hey honey, I know you're mad at me but I just thought if you could come and spend Christmas in Canada with me and your grandparents. I miss my little daughter and I just want it to be like last time when we were happy and nobody got in the way, I understand that Vincent put you off me and I honestly would do what you did as well, I'm sick of spending Christmas without you."

My tears fell as I dropped my phone an leaned back. I don't think I'm ready to see my mom. But then I don't want to spend Christmas alone. Kelsey is going to New York to see her parents and Jess is going back to Atlanta to see hers. I was alone. I haven't spoken to my mom for 4 years, I will never forgive her for what she done but she is my mother and I have to accept the fact that she wants to see me.

I put my keys into the ignition and roar the car to life putting the heating on. I hate winter.

So I'm home sitting on my couch in my room wearing one of Justin's hoodies... and a pair of sweats. It was the only hoodie I have, no really. I made myself some hot chocolate and turned the fireplace on. It's about 9pm and I'm hesitating to open that notebook Jess gave me. I place my cup on the side table and hold the book in my hands. Alright, I can do this. I slowly open the book onto the first page and swallow my saliva.