Hold On Tight: 'Never let go'

"Kill me. I dare you."

*Kate’s P.O.V*

We drove to my apartment and I ran into my room in a rush just to pack my clothes. I actually can’t believe I'm going back to Canada for Christmas, the thought if seeing my family is one of the best feelings ever. It’s been three years in a row that I've spent Christmas alone, I was always scared to face my mom after she left Vincent, I was always scared that the memories will come flooding back. But this time I am not letting myself fall so low. I need my family especially for Christmas. Nobody deserves to spend Christmas alone. You do.

Maybe I do… I deserved to be treaded the way I was treated by Vincent, he never told me the reason why he hurt me but then again it gave me a lot to think about. Now that Justin is in my life everything is in place and my life is back on track.

“Babe you ready?” Justin's voice broke the silence in the bedroom as my head turned to look at him standing in the doorway leaning on his shoulder with his arms crossed and a cute grin on his face.

“Nearly ready.” I smile.

 Suddenly I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders and warm lips on my cheek. “Babe I know your scared about seeing your mom but don’t forget I will always be there for you.”

I sighed and shook my head. He doesn’t understand. I stood up and walked into my closet cooking through my jumpers and came across a black polar bear one with bells. It was honestly the ugliest thing ever but it was from my mom. Don’t get me wrong Christmas jumpers are all ugly so just because it’s my mom’s it doesn’t mean I have to hate it.

The thought of my mom wanted to make me cry. The emotions were building up again and I'm bottled up, alone. “Kate answer me”

I look up at Justin to see him waiting for an answer.

“What?” I snapped.

“do you miss your mom?”

“Justin” a silence overcame the room.

“Look I don’t feel like talking about her.” I carried on. I stared down at the jumper and dropped it to the floor feeling my tears build up. I looked up at Justin barely seeing a thing through them. “Justin I can’t do this.” A tear escaped.

*Flashback*

“Mommy please!” I shouted as loud as I can, feeing the blood from my eyebrow dripping into my hands. She turned away and walked towards Vincent. “You’re really doing this, your leaving me for him.” My tears fell as my legs felt like jelly.

“Mom you're making a big mistake.”

“Katie I'm sorry.” Her hands were shaking as the tears fell.

“Don’t call me that! If you chose him then I'm done with being your daughter! Mom just forget that you ever had me.” I shouted across the room.

“I'm doing this to protect you!”

Vincent slapped her across the face causing her to fall to the floor. “MOM!” I ran towards her and slapped Vincent in the face causing his head to swing to the right. “Your fucking dead.” He growled under his voice as he grabbed my throat and held me up against the wall.

“Kill me. I dare you.” I spat.

“With pleasure.” He smiled.

I looked over to my mom and watched her take no action but just stand there and watch her own daughter practically about to be killed. “Mom remember what I said. Forget. You. Ever. Had. Me.” I choked on each word.