"Please Nathan!" I begged, catching up to him and placing my hand on his arm.
"Why should I?" He snapped, turning to face me and I stepped back, surprised by the suddenness of it.
"W-what?" I asked and he shook he head.
"Why should I listen to you? Every time one of us screws up-"
"We always forgive each other!" I said, cutting him off.
"But we always do this! We forgive each other and then hurt the other again and again! I'm starting to think it's not even worth it anymore!" He exclaimed and I stopped and looked at him as a tear slid down my cheek.
"You- what...?" I stuttered and he rubbed the back of his neck, turning away from me. "No Nathan. You look at me, you look me in the eye and say you're gonna leave me again," I said, my entire body shaking with anger and sadness.
He turned back to me and shook his head slightly. "Nathan, look. At. Me," I said and he did. His beautiful blue eyes met mine and I saw the pain in his eyes.
"I can't do this Kelsey," he said simply and I stepped back and nodded.
"I-o-ok that's your decision," I said, rubbing my hands on my jeans, and he stepped forward. "No," I said, stopping him, "no, y-you can't take it back."
He hesitated before closing the distance between us, grabbing my waist, pulling me closer to him. Then he cupped my face with both hands and kissed me the same way he did on the bus.
Lonely, desperate, loving.
He kissed me again before ending it abruptly and walking away. My arms dropped and I just stood for a minute, watching him walk away.
"I just... I love him so much," I said and Jen nodded, taking a sip of her beer.
"You were so lucky to have a love like that," Jen said as the bartender poured us shots of tequila.
We took the shots and two more rounds before the bartender called Mark to come pick us up.
"It's all because of you, you know," I said as Mark put me and Jen in his car.
"What is?" He asked as he sat in the driver seat and I sighed, putting my seatbelt on.
"If you hadn't kissed me Nate never would've broken up with me," I said and he sighed as he started driving.
"Kels, you can sleep on the couch tonight," Mark said as he closed the door to their apartment and I shook my head.
"No, I think I'll sleep with Jen tonight," I said as I took off my shirt and gingerly placed it on the table. Jen slid her arm around my waist and giggled as we stumbled our way to her room, closing the door behind us.
"What the hell happened last night?" I asked as I rolled over and saw Jen laying in bed beside me. I looked under the blanket quickly before looking back at Jen with a sigh of relief. "What the hell did we do?" I asked again and she groaned as she rubbed her eyes before opening them.
"I don't remember anything past... our third rounds of shots," Jen slurred sleepily and I sighed, sitting up, and she looked at me.
"I can't do glad we didn't actually do anything," I said and she smirked, sitting up as well.
"Well eventually it will happen," she said and I smiled.
"I'm gonna go," I said and she grabbed my hand. She tapped her mouth and I leaned over and kissed her quickly before getting up and getting dressed. "Do you know where my shirt is?" I asked, flipping my hair to one side so I could look at her, and she shrugged.
"I told you, I don't remember," she laughed and I chuckled as I walked out of the room.
"Found it!" I called from the kitchen as I put my shirt on.
"Will you call me?" Jen called and I smiled as I slipped on my jacket.
"Of course," I called back before closing the front door.
As I walked down the hall I felt my phone vibrate so I pulled it out of my pocket and checked it while I waited for the elevator.
Nate/ I left your bag at the studio; 6:30pm
Nate/ I'm sorry Kelsey I was wrong please text me back I'm sure we can work through this; 9:24pm
Nate/ you slept with him again didn't you? Slut; 11:54pm
Nate/ I can't believe you would defend him! Do you love him or something?; 1:30am
Nate/ please talk to me Kels; 4:30am
Nate/ who am I kidding you're probably sleeping or sluting around; 4:45am
Facebook: James Bruno sent you a friend request
Twitter: @estel127 mentioned you in a tweet
Twitter: @dgcraig55 retweeted: @andyblack It's not your fault man, it's something your booking agent should've known you can't be blamed.
Nate/ I love you Kelsey, I'm so sorry; 5:32am
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Nate/ Can we meet at Starbucks?; 7:34am
Kelsey/ sure.; 7:40am
I put my phone in my pocket and called a taxi.
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Lost In The Moment
FanfictionHe's a rapper with a troubled past She's a singer with the perfect life He's damaged goods She's a flight risk Neither are looking for love Neither want love But when they both find it will they be able to keep it?
