Always Deny, Never Admit

A Dorm Decision

* ( Extra long chapter special )

He had kissed her.

It was innocent and quick, but she wouldn't let him stop there.

She had kissed him, roughly and passionately with a craving he didn't know if he could fulfill. Josh was finding it harder and harder to restrain himself. Still, he told himself she just turned eighteen and she was a little impulsive.

For some reason, in his dorm room he couldn't tell her to stop what she was doing to him. Until she pushed him onto his bed and straddled him suggestively. That gesture brought Josh back to his senses and he stopped her.

"Maya, listen we need to calm down, like a lot." He said firmly, attempting to sit up. Maya scoffed and pushed his chest down with her hand.

"We don't have to." She whispered, putting her forehead against his. Josh's breathing was heavy now and he found himself almost letting her takeover.

"You just turned eighteen, we can't do this." Josh muttered weakly.

"I'm finally eighteen, we can do this." She shot back, kissing him quickly to stop his mumbled protests.

Josh pulled away and his breathing was ragged. "You need to stop before I can't stop myself." He warned the blonde, gently pushing her off of him. She frowned and pushed her hair back with annoyance.

"I don't want to take advantage of you."  Josh said, looking down at his hands as he nervously fidgeted.

"Maybe I want you to take advantage of me."

Josh winced. He had to admit that her saying that had made him a little more excited than he should've been, but she was already kissing his neck and he was starting to lose it.

"Maya." Josh growled, a mixture of saying no and saying he enjoyed it.

Maya ignored him completely and pulled him on top of her. Josh placed his hands on both sides of her head, steadying himself.

Josh wanted to continue, but he didn't want to feel wrong doing it.

So he looked back at her and calmly breathed. Her hair was sprawled out along the bed and her eyes look excited, like something great was about to happen. Maya was beautiful. He could see her rosebud lips, coated with a layer of lip gloss that he wasn't familiar with. He wanted to be familiar with it, with her.

She was different now, an adult now, a woman now. Still gorgeous, just more amazing than she already was. He was still looking at Mays's lips and her chest was heaving under him.

Maya looked a little red, like she was embarrassed now instead of dominant. He smiled and pushed a strand of hair from her eyes out of her face.

Maya stayed still, and in that moment she changed.

"I'm sorry I pushed you to do something you were uncomfortable with, we don't have to do anything if you don't want to." Josh heard her, but he wasn't listening.

He leaned down and kissed her, softly and gently at first. Molding his lips with hers and familiarizing himself with her lip gloss. It wasn't until she whimpered that the kiss became a little more meaningful and a little more rough.

Maya peeled off his jacket and played suggestively with his hair. Josh contemplated stopping her, but it was just a jacket. They never broke the kiss as the both sat upright and Maya straddled him once again.

Josh pulled her sweatshirt over her head and tossed it onto the floor. Just a sweatshirt, because it was hot in the room. She giggled before wrapping her arms around his neck and connecting their mouths in another embrace.

Josh knew that this would have to stop eventually, but not now. He was kissing her neck, and she was making noises that satisfied him in ways he didn't know he could be satisfied in.

"Josh." She whined, tugging on his shirt. He pushed her hand away and continued to pleasure her. He hoped that they would keep their clothes on because he was not looking forward to having another talk with her mom.

"We can't." Josh replied, setting her off of his lap. She nodded and swallowed in embarrassment.

"I didn't mean to make those weird sounds." Maya said, her face still red and her breathing still ragged.

Josh smiled.

"It means I was doing my job right." He teased, looking back at her. She was flushed and she looked adorable in such an embarrassed state.

"It just felt. . . Good." Maya told him.

"I sure hope it did."

"No I mean, I've never felt that way before and I was making those very embarrassing sounds because it felt really good."

Josh blushed and quirked his lips into a smile. It was a compliment of sorts and Josh felt satisfied that she wasn't uncomfortable.

"Remember how you told me when I turned eighteen we could do whatever I wanted in your dorm?" She asked, scooting dangerously close to his lap.

Josh sighed and nodded. Her lips were inches away from his and he felt himself leaning in again.

"You wouldn't go back on your word would you?"