letters to hazel

Six

-Harry-

I felt so cheesy talking to the girl I was once so in love with, I felt almost like the person I was when her and I first started talking. I felt bright and youthful and it was something I hadn't felt in such a long time. Piper was an amazing girlfriend. She was more accepting and kind than so many of the girls I had talked to since Hazel, and that meant something. No one had tried there best to understand my situation with Hazel and still let me in. She looked past it all and still loved me for it. She was a good person but that didn't change the way that Hazel made me feel. She made me feel like there was hope left in the world, like everything I did mattered and like waking up every single day was going to mean something. 

Harry: I can do tomorrow, the rest of the week I have studio time lined up that I can't miss.

"What are you smiling about?", Piper said as she sat down on my lap. I placed my phone so that the screen was facing down and I knew that was shady but a piece of me wanted to hide texting Hazel from her. I knew that my texts weren't wrong but I didn't want Piper to be mad at me. 

"I texted Hazel today about her book", I said and Piper looked at me shocked but she wasn't angry. She never got mad about things like this. 

"You already read the book?"

"I stayed up most of last night reading it. I'm pretty sure I didn't finish it but I read enough of it to know she meant no harm."

"What did she write about? Is it cool if I read it when you're done?"

"She just wrote about us and what we were like when we were together. She has a daughter now so the book is really for her in hopes that she won't have to deal with the questions. She says she hates that people want her to hate me and the negativity that gets thrown my way because of it" Piper's face softened, " You are more than welcome to read it."

"And she has a daughter now? Does that mean she is with someone or is she single?"

There Piper goes with her questions again, questions that I didn't know how to answer or what the answer was to make it even worse. I didn't know if she was with someone or single, I didn't know who the father of her child was and that made my stomach sink to the bottom of my stomach. I went to my bag and got the book out of it, I slid it across the table where Piper now was and she began to thumb through the pages.

"She does have a daughter now and she has a whole chapter about her and her daughter's relationship but I don't know who the father is or if she is with someone or not."

"She has a lot of positive things to say about you though which makes me happy because I know how much you love her. I would hate to see how you would be if she hated you know", I had to agree with her. If she wrote a whole book on how horrible of a man I was and how disgusting I was for all that I did to her I would be crushed. I told Piper so many positive things about Hazel and for her to go and hate me, I think that would kill me. 

"Did Hazel ever respond to your text though?", she asked and I picked up my phone for a response.

Hazel: Sounds perfect! See you then!!

"She did actually. I apologized to being so rude to her at the signing and she was just so nice about it. We made plans to meet up tomorrow to talk about the book and just catch up.l

" That's amazing!", Piper enthused and I was surprised that she was so happy for me. Sometimes it felt weird how happy she was to hear such positive things about Hazel. She was so supportive and I loved it, but you would think that she was at least a little bit jealous. Even now that she could see how much Hazel loved me, she didn't seem like any of it affected her. 

"Yeah", I smiled, " Hazel really loved me and we really had something going on that was just so different. If you read it don't feel bad if it makes you uncomfortable or like jealous, she talks a lot about how she loved me and still loves me like she did when she was young."

"It's okay if I do, Harry. I know where we stand and I'm confident in our relationship enough not to worry about it", she said calmly," Just remember we have a dinner tomorrow night so make your plans early in the day."

She walked off into the kitchen and I couldn't help but wonder if she was mad at me or was going to be mad about the book. She seemed so calm and cool but how calm and cool could you continue to be when you read a book about how someone loved your boyfriend so much more than you. It had to be an uncomfortable situation for her to be in. How worried I was about it though really said a lot though. I think it showed a lot about how I felt for Hazel and how comfortable I was in the relationship that I had with Piper.

Short ass chapter, sorry for the wait but the next few chapters will be a lot more exciting and be more interesting to read than this one.