the deluded ones [#2]

feelings

march 24th, 2017

loneliness does not hide in the back of your mind, trying to irritate you by prodding your worldly thoughts. it consumes you, nipping at your brain till it gains enough strength to take it as a whole.

once it overtakes your brain, it spreads, running through your blood as if it were a pathway. everything you see, everything you feel, it is full of solitude and a lack of understanding.

a smile can last for a minute, but loneliness can last for a decade.

do i cry because i am alone? no, i do not because i always have someone nearby who'd be open to hearing me cry as i die a little each time.

yet, i am full of loneliness. i cry because of my surroundings that can only be seen as filled to the brim with isolation and seclusion by my weak eyes. i cry because i do not understand why i am not alone but full of loneliness at the same time. i cry because no one can understand why i find it so hard to keep the pain inside for loneliness and being alone are not the same; they are not nearly the same at all.