the deluded ones [#2]

that

april 7th, 2017

"do you realize you've taught me lessons? you have helped me find the solutions to my problems, and you also helped me find great happiness."

why is it so hard for me to believe you? why do i feel like my insides are flooding and overflowing constantly?

you can't see what i see, but i don't see good things in me. to me, all i've done is given a little clarification to your life. how could i ever do something as great as teach you things you weren't so sure about before?

"i don't think you realize it. i just want you to be happy."

how can one be happy? how does one know if they're really happy?

i dont't know, i don't know. how could i teach you anything if i don't know anything?

"why would i think anything about you is stupid?"

i'm so confused; i'm so lost. why do i feel so distraught? am i crying? why am i crying? am i that idiotic? i dont understand at all.

i'm sorry i'm like this; if i could stop being like this, i would. i hope you know that.