the deluded ones [#2]

the

june 2nd, 2017

my mind is overactive; i wake in the middle of the night, and i remember you again.

and i wonder what i'm dreaming and why i keep waking up. yet, when i try to fall back asleep, your words sigh in the back of my head, and i feel embarrassed but happy too.

does everyone feel this way when they're confused? do they wake up countless times without understanding why? are their minds softly whispering familiar words in their head that make their heart quicken and their eyes awaken?

and i wonder if i'm waking up in the midst of the dark night because of you, because my mind keeps thinking of you. does it mean anything? what does everything mean?

i'm so disorientated yet focused at the same time; you've made things change, but i don't think it's necessarily a bad thing. i can't even say the simplest rhyme; am i really alive?

i never thought this would happen; i never thought i'd be so lost yet so situated. do you know how much you've changed things? it's a little funny how much you've impacted my thoughts, but i don't think i really mind.