the deluded ones [#2]

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march 12th, 2017

you're determined to do things for yourself first in the future, and i feel calm knowing that you''ll put your well-being first before another's when you need to. i don't want you to fall into the trap of doing everything for someone when they wouldn't do a thing for you. i wouldn't want you to have to experience that hurt so extensively when it makes you feel sick as you become incapable of stopping the rain that trickles from your eyes for an endless period of time or the sounds that escape the vocal chords that would've let you speak your mind if you had gained the courage to do so.

i wouldn't want you to have to know that so extensively, not know when we're too young to know the difference between dream and reality.

so, it makes me relieved to know that, if it ever comes to it, you'll let me go, so i drift away like the paper planes that float on the gentle breezes because, if i ever hurt you, i'd want you to push me away. if you could be happy without me by your side because of what i did, then, one day, i'd understand.

it'd be clear as day.