Stubborn Love.

Chapter 102

Chapter 102

Niall

I cannot believe that our first single is going to be played for the first time on radio tomorrow. I'm beyond nervous and excited at the same time. Harry bought me a pair of gloves so I stop biting on my nails. He wants to make sure that I won't show up at the radio station with no nails left on my fingers. You know, I can't get rid of my habit. It's actually getting worse and Louis tried to convince me to get professional help. Don't worry, he was just joking around, kinda.

The last few months were exhausting but unbelievable exciting as well. When we heard "What makes you beautiful" for the first time, we instantly knew that we wanted it to be our first ever single. And also the rest of the songs, which were written for us, are amazing.

In January we started recording our debut album in Sweden and met so many new people. Helene, our vocal coach, the songwriters and also the producers of our album. It was so strange to be in a recording studio but the fun we had, the time spent together as a band and with our new and old team, I would say it was in some sort of way the best time I've ever had. And it helped me to keep myself occupied and away from thinking about Kelsey. Kelsey.

A few months has passed, and we haven't talked since the day it all went down hill. And with that day I mean the night from the 31st of December to the first of January. When a guy showed up, and made a scene. When he told me everything I didn't know and now I wish I would have never found out, because then Kelsey and I would still be happy and maybe a couple. But that's in the past and I don't even like to think about again or anymore. I wish she would have called me, at least once. But she never did. I told her to leave me the fuck alone and not to try to contact me, but deep down, I didn't want what I told her. I wanted and still want the exact opposite. I wanted her to call me, I wanted her to at least give me an explanation, to tell me the truth but she never did.

"Nialler?" Liam knocks at the door to my room.

"Yep. I'm in here." I sigh and the next second, the door swings open.

"You ready?" He asks me and I give him a nod. "Coming. Where's the rest?" I ask Liam.

"Downstairs. Everyone is only waiting for you. Even Zayn is already dressed and good to go." Liam chuckles and steps into my room.

"Yeah I forgot the time." I lie. Actually I didn't exactly forget the time. I was just in thoughts. I don't know when I started thinking about her again. I guess it was after we came back to London and moved into our new house, sponsored by our management. We had a few days off and instead of going home to Ireland, I stayed here. I obviously had too much time, so everything I was avoiding and trying to forget came back.

"Is everything okay?" Liam raises an eyebrow.

"Yes of course." I wish I could talk to Liam about Kelsey but I can't.

"You're lying. I can tell by the look on your face. You're different since we all went home and you stayed here." He walks over to my bed and has a seat next to me.

"No. You're seeing ghosts. All good." I give him a thumbs up.

"Let's talk later. Okay? We really have to go now. Simon us waiting for us."

Simon. We owe him so much. He was a great mentor but now he is even more. He's our friend. He invited us for dinner to have a chit chat or something before our big day tomorrow. He even came to the UK to be able to be on our side in case we need him. I doubt we will but it's good to know that we can count on him, to a 100 per cent.

"Okay." I say to Liam and jump off the bed. I need to be happy. Like tomorrow is the day we've been waiting for since we finished recording the single and the whole album. I can't believe Scott Mills will play the song on his radio show for the first time ever. BBC Radio 1 is like the most important radio station in the UK and when David told us that Scott wants to have us on show to introduce the song, we first couldn't believe it.