Stubborn Love.

Chapter 119

Chapter 119

Kelsey

I have no idea what I'm actually doing right now but it feels good to have my lips crushed onto his. At first he doesn't kiss me back but after less than a second, he opens his mouths and slides his tongue into my mouth and starts exploring. He pulls me even closer him so my body is pressed onto his. Now I realise how much I've actually missed him and the way his body reacts to mine. He hugs me tighter and I notice how he smirks under my lips. This is my cue to stop doing whatever I'm doing.

"So this is what you mean with being friends and all." He takes a deep breath, still holding me in his arms. It's the place where I want to be but I know I can't be there.

"Not exactly." I admit and bite my lip.

"Stop doing that or I have to drag you into your room." He chuckles. How can we go from fighting to joking around?

"Niall. I mean it. I want to be your friend. Someone you can talk to but.." He lifts both of his hands and cups my face.

"But?" No no no. Why keeps he looking at me like that? Like some puppy.

"What do you want from me?" I take all my courage and ask him right away. I need some answers.

"I want you to be my girlfriend." I expected him to say exactly that. The one thing Niall can do best is forgetting about the past and living in the here and now. We haven't seen each other in months, we haven't even talked since New Year's Eve and then he shows up out of nowhere and thinks it's all good. I hope he isn't pitying me because of the loss of my dad.

"Are you feeling sorry for me because of what happened with my dad?" I ask him and take him completely off guard.

"I do feel sorry about your loss but that has nothing to do why I want to be together with you." He starts biting his fingernails and seems nervous. Something tells that he is being honest with me.

"Okay." I look to the side. I don't want our eyes to lock again since I still have to tell him what I want. I need to be honest with him, although I already were but he didn't quite get it.

"I do want to be together with you but I can't be your girlfriend. All I can offer is being a friend to you as a start. I need to sort out my life and I have to put myself first for once." I sigh and take his hand before I squeeze it.

"Okay. I don't want to lose you and if a friendship is all you can give to me right now, then I take it." He finally gives in and I feel a weight falling off my shoulders. I'm glad that he agreed to let me be a part of his life, as a friend, not as his girl.

"You want to come in?" I ask him. It's a shame he hasn't met Deb yet and I really want to introduce her to him. He is such an important person to me and I actually can't believe that our talk, which I've avoided over several months went that easy, a bit too easy for my taste.

"Sure. I still have a bit time left before Preston comes picking me up again." He tightens his grip around my hand and I feel safe, like he is giving the safety I need.

"Then let's go." I smile and we both walk, hand in hand, toward the door.

The second we step inside, I spot Nate running toward us. Once he is standing in front of us, he throws his arms around Niall's waist and presses himself onto my friend. They look like they know each other pretty well.

"Hello Niall." Nate giggles.

"Hello my little friend. Long time no see." Niall winks and pats Nate's back.

"True. You were really nice to me today. Kelsey, Niall and I had a little talk today." Really? A little talk? The both of them? Interesting.

"Is that so?" I raise an eyebrow and cross my arms in front of my chest.