Stubborn Love.

Chapter 160

Chapter 160

Kelsey POV

My heart is beating fast, my breath is out of control. I close my eyes and let go of everything I have tried to hold together. Everything seems perfect, so perfect that it scares me. Niall collapses over my body and buries his head between my breasts, his soft lips brushing over my skin, leaving me shuttering. I just want to live in this moment for the rest of my life, for the rest of our life together. I remain silent and listen to his rapid heart beat, feeling his chest moving up and down on me. Perfect. Until, yes until three words leave his mouth. Three words probably every girl in this freaking world would love to hear. Well except for me. Because I don't know what to do now. I stop my breath, scared and not sure what's the best to say in reply. Do I love him? Yes. Do I want him to know? No. Why? Because I don't want my heart be broken by him, by Niall. I know that he will hurt me one day, not on purpose but that doesn't matter.

"Kelsey?" I hear him saying. "I'm sorry I didn't mean.." He didn't mean what? ".. I mean I love you. I'm sorry." He rolls to the side and off me. I grab the sheets and throw them over my naked body. I feel embarrassed and ashamed.

"Can you please say something." Niall begs. I wish I could, I wish I could come up with a clever answer, maybe even with an "I love you , too".

"I'm going to have a shower." He sounds mad and a bit disappointed and it's all my fault. I hurt him which makes me feel horrible.

"Wait." I bite my bottom lip and reach out with my right hand to stop him from getting out of the bed. When I touch his back, he look over shoulder. "Why? To make us both feel even more uncomfortable?" He is right. The room isn't big enough anymore to make the tension its filled with go away.

"See you have nothing to say and neither have I." Niall takes a deep breath and pushes himself up from the mattress. He doesn't look back when he leaves his room, grabbing a shirt and pair of jeans on his way to the bathroom. I fucked up, big time and I have no idea how to make things better. I don't want to drive back home on a bad note. Why did he have to say that he loves me? Why? Couldn't he just leave things how they were?

I let myself fall back onto the best, closing my eyes and just wish that everything was how it was before. But that's not going to happen. I need to come up with something that will make both Niall and I happy again. Maybe I should get dressed and sneak out of the house, avoiding an argument, avoiding the awkward goodbye later. But on the other hand, that would just be unfair and it would make everything even worse. Niall would never forgive me, ever. He wouldn't even want to talk to me again and probably go look for another girl that's not so screwed up.

I move to the edge of the bed, pulling the sheet with me and start staring at the wall across from me. It's when I hear a knock on the door soon followed by Liam's voice coming from that direction. "Niall? You awake?" Shit. But.. but maybe Liam can help me with my problem.

"Liam?" I say but there's no reply. "You can come in, first let me get dressed." I have no idea whether he is still on the other side of door or has already left. I quickly get up and look for me panties and Niall's shirt I wore last night before it got ripped away from my body.

"Oooookay." I hear Liam saying so I know he is still there.

When I'm dressed and back in bed, I tell him to come in. The door is being opened just a few moments later.

"Niall's taking a shower." I tell Liam before he can even ask me. With my hand, I tell him to come closer and have a seat on the bed.

"So I guess you've stayed the night." He chuckles.

"Yep." I nod. I did stay the night, although it would have been better to have never come to London in the first place.

"So.. what's up?" I want to ask him for advice so now it is the best time. Now or never, I think.