Stubborn Love.

Chapter 139

Chapter 139

Niall

My eyes never leave Kelsey when I grip her waist and guide us both into the shower. Her smile is genuine and her eyes are wide open, full of lust and want. I can't believe she's okay with having a shower with me. I didn't expect her to say yes to it but everything looks like she's enjoying it and that makes me want her even more.

"You look hot as hell." I say and mean it. She doesn't have to wear make-up to look breathtaking and she definitely doesn't have to cover any part of her body because it's perfect. Her boobs have the perfect size, her body is toned and those curves.. damn.

"Shht. No dirty talking but instead you should kiss me." She bites her lower lip and looks at me innocently.

But that's not what I do. Instead I brush my fingers over the soft skin just above her hip bone. "I like to tease." I wink at her and lean forward to place a kiss on the side of her neck. "Not fair." She pouts and titles her head to the side to give me better access.

"I never play fair." I fire back and tighten my grip on both sides of her hips. "Now come here." I pull her close to me so her boobs are touching my lower chest. Sweet Jesus. It takes me a lot of self control to hold back and not pin her against the wall right away. I want her to enjoy this, us, in the shower but to he completely honest, I can't tell how long I'll last.

I don't know what it is with Kelsey. I really have no idea. I mean, there has to be something for us in the future? We can't just be fucking buddies for the rest of our lives. Fucking buddies?

"What are you thinking about?" Kelsey pushes herself away from my body, so my lips leave her neck.

"Nothing." I mumble but don't dare to look her in the eyes. She would know right away that I'm lying. So instead I look down at her .. tits.

"Are you staring at my boobs? Oh my god, you are." She laughs but crosses her arms in front of her chest at the same time.

"Don't... do.. that." I say sharply. She is killing me and she obviously has no idea what an effect she has on me.

"Don't do what?" She raises an eyebrow and I'm close to losing it completely. "Now tell me what you were thinking because if you don't, then I will have to let you behind and have a shower all by myself."

"I don't know how to say it." I'm scared. I don't want her to run out of the bathroom because of being mad at me for even thinking about her as a fuck-buddy.

"Tell me, Niall." She demands. She is all serious suddenly.

"Do you think there's a future for us? I know you don't want to talk about it. I just.. " I don't know how to keep going. I'm trying to find the right words but they don't seem to come up, as usual.

"I'm practically naked, so I can't really have this conversation with you right now. I'd say we talk about later?" She suggests and yeah when I think about it, she's right. Hell, I'm a boy and not some whiny kid.

So instead of giving her an answer, I spin around and turn on the water before grabbing her wrist and pulling her with me. The next second, the cold water is hitting both of our bodies, and when she giggles and squeaks because of the cold, I can't hide a smile. She blinks with her eyes and leans forward, wrapping her arms around my chest and then running her hands up and down my bare back.

*

Saying goodbye is not easy. In fact, it's pretty damn hard. People say with the time it gets easier and easier but I guess that's a lie. I know that I'll never get used to it, ever.