My Perfect Stranger

-She's Right-

I'm staring at the box for a couple of minutes now. What the hell is this box supposed to mean? Could it be him? How was that possible?? Hindi naman siya nakatira dun sa Pasig line. Bakit hindi ko siya nakilala? So many questions and again I don't know any answers. My mind started to recall every encounters I had with that stranger. With those few memories I have, I'm trying to decipher everything. I somehow wanted to open what's inside but I'm afraid to know the answer. What's happening to me? Gusto ko siyang makilala di ba? I need answers, right? I should open this to confirm my suspicions. What's preventing me to do it?

"You're here." I twisted my body towards the right and I saw her. Standing a few distance from where I am. I can tell that she's glaring at me despite of the contrast of the lights.

She shifted her stare at the box. "Ano yan? Regalo ba ni Miguel yan sa'yo? Kayo na ba?" Fear starts to build up in me and I don't know why. I quickly return the box to its place and shut the door close.

Her eyes are very sharp and it's boring a hole into my soul. "Surprised? I am as well. What on earth are you doing here!? Did you enjoy his misery? Panalo ka na naman. After Miguel, siya naman ang kinuha mo. You stole them from me. Ikaw na naman ang dahilan kung bakit kami nagdudusa lahat." Her every words are like poison that are slowly getting into my system. Galit pa din siya sa akin. Kung tutuusin, ako dapat ang mas may karapatang magalit sa aming dalawa because she was the sole reason why my life is a mess now but I don't feel any anger inside me.

Ano nga ba ang dapat kong i-sagot? I wanted to appear strong in front of her but I'm sure my voice will betray me. In the end, I found myself, fumbling with my answer. "Hindi ko ginusto ang nangyayari. If I can undo my..."

"Oh fuck it! Just save it. Palaging yan na lang ang linya ng mga 'bidang' katulad niyo. Hindi nyo ginusto ang nangyayari? If you could do something about it. If you could turn back time. Ano may nakalimutan pa ba ako!? That's all bullshit you know! Hindi nyo ginusto ang nangyari pero in the end, all this shit will be in your favor so bakit hindi nyo gugustuhin ang mga nangyari?!!" She have gone mad. You can tell it by her gestures and her tone. Napaatras ako cause I could feel her outrage from here even if she's a meter away from me.

"I-I'm s-sorry." My breathing is ragged when I answered. Hindi pa pala tapos ang mga issue ko. I thought it will be over but it wasn't yet. Not yet soon.

"Another bullshit line! Wala ka na bang ibang masabi!? Can your sorry mend everything that is broken? Could it stop the hurting and suffering that we all feel?" I flinched. She always have this effect in me. Everytime she's around, I feel so degraded. Alam ko namang lamang siya in every way at alam kong tama lahat ng sinabi niya. The weight of her words is slowly crushing my defense.

"B-bakit k-ka ba galit sa akin?" You see. My brain goes stupid again. Alam ko naman ang sagot. Hindi ko na kasi alam ang gagawin ko. I feel so naïve in front of her.

She snickered. "Sinabi ko na di ba? You're the reason why we are all suffering. Why our life is so fucked up! My life, particularly. Lagi mo na lang kinukuha yung mga taong mahalaga sa akin. Si Miguel then si Harold. Palaging ikaw ang kaagaw ko. Ano bang ginawa ko sa'yo ha at lahat na lang kinukuha mo sa akin?! Alam mo bang napakasama mo. They both love you but you're just reciprocating it with pain. Bakit ka pa bumalik!? Nag-eenjoy ka bang nakikitang sinisira ni Harold ang buhay niya? Masarap ba sa pakiramdam na nakikita mong nagdudusa ang ex mo? Sweet revenge ba? At si Miguel? Ang kapal din naman ng mukha mo na isama siya dito para makita mo lang ang ex mo! Hindi mo man lang ba inisip na masasaktan siya!? You're so selfish, do you know that!? Sinasaktan mo lang silang dalawa you're making their damn lives miserable!" Her voice are like knives that are aiming to kill me slowly. Hindi ko ma-digest lahat ng mga sinabi niya.