My Perfect Stranger

-Runaway-

Ang tagal ko bago nakasagot. Sa totoo lang ang gusto ko lang naman eh, makilala siya. Yun yung alam ko sa ngayon. He didn't remove his gaze at me and he's waiting for my answer.

"As of now, I just want to know him. Yun lang." I answered him with the thing that I'm sure of.

He heaves a deep sigh. "Olats." he murmured as he return his gaze forward.

"Pero, I won't give up. I'll put on a good fight." he mumbled again. Fight lang ang narinig ko.

"It's your turn." he said. I creased my forehead as I darted my head at him.

"Any violent reaction or is there anything that you want to ask me?"

Ah, yun pala. I contemplated on what to ask him. What do I want to know? Okay, I have one. Parang alam ko naman ang sagot but I want to hear it from him just to confirm.

"Are you and Nikola together as a couple?" he smiled bitterly when he heard my question.

"Why do you want to know?"

"Just curious. Honey kasi tawag niya sa'yo kanina pero di ba bawal yun? Incest." he laughed boisterously. Ano na naman ba ang nakakatawa?

"Sorry. Ah No, I mean we're not real siblings. Sina mommy na ang kumupkop sa kanya simula ng mamatay yung parents at mga kapatid niya sa plane crash. Wala kasi siyang kamag-anak dito nasa Switzerland at Australia lahat. Kaya kahit kami nga walang incest dun." he's still laughing.

"So kayo nga?" he didn't answer my question.

"Yun yung tingin nila." he suddenly became serious.

"Huh? Tingin nila? Bakit hindi ba talaga kayo?" My forehead wrinkled.

"Yata." Whoa! His answer is crystal. I let it go. Naguguluhan ako lalo eh.

"Magulo talaga. Kahit ako hindi ko maintindihan eh. Yun lang ba ang gusto mong malaman?" Narinig nya yung sinabi ko? Did I say my thoughts out loud again?

Okay, moving on with the next. This question just popped out of my head. "Why me, Aidan? Of all the girls you've met, bakit ako pa? I mean look at you, sa hitsura mo I'm sure a lot of girls are crazy over you. There are a lot of fishes in the ocean, yung mga pang aquarium pa. You have a vast of choices, why choose someone like me? I don't think I'm worth of your attention. Kahit nga yung kay Bricks at Harold eh. Nagtataka talaga ako, why did they choose me over other girls? Pretty girls. I must say."

"Cause you're one in 7 billion people, Anna. Don't degrade yourself like that. If only I could let you peek through my eyes so that you could see what I see in you and what you are to me, you'll understand why. How I wish I could put these into words pero mahirap i-explain eh. I just can't spell it out to you. Malamang ganun din ang nakikita at nararamdaman nila sa'yo. Yeah, true there are a lot of fishes in the ocean but anong magagawa ko ikaw yung mangigisda eh at ako yung nabingwit mo." he chuckled.

"Corny mo talaga, Aidan. Pero maraming magagandang babae dyan. Bakit ayaw mo sa kanila? It really doesn't make sense to me at all. Di ba kayong mga lalaki importante sa inyo yung physical appearance?" Agree ba kayo sa akin?

He smiled before answering. "That's true. At first, we all notice the physical appearance of someone. Yun kasi ang nakikita kaagad. Admit it, even girls ganun din. Ikaw ba pag bibili ka ng prutas o gulay ano bang bibilhin mo yung mukhang bulok o yung fresh? Siyempre yung fresh di ba? But there's more than meets the eye. In the process, sa personality na nagkakatalo. Apprearance only catches the eye but not the heart. Hindi naman yung mukha ang pakikisamahan mo. Although yung iba gusto talaga ung 'trophy' na girlfriend o boyfriend. Alam mo na para masabing 'Uy ganda/gwapo ng kasama niya, swerte naman.' You know unconsciously, we all seek attention and approval of others just to satisfy our ego. Pero at the end of the day ma-rerealize mo na hindi ka masaya. Why? Because it's all superficial. Hindi alam ng mga taong pinasisikatan mo o yung mga ngayon mo lang nakakasalubong na may hidden monster pala yung kasama mo, may kulang sa kanya that cannot be fill up my just mere physical appearance. Marami akong kilalang ganyan. Mga artsita di ba ganyan, kaya a few months or years wala na kaagad sila. Well, there are few who have it all. You know looks, brains and attitude pero kasi ang babaw ng rason mo kung bakit mo siya nagustuhan. Paano pag nawala yung only reason kung bakit mo siya gusto, ano wala na lang? Ganun na lang yun? Goodbye na lang. Hahanap ka na lang ng iba. Hindi ganun, Anna. You love without knowing the reason why. Love is a feeling not just a word with definition. If tinanong kita kung bakit mo mahal ang isang tao tapos nagisip ka, that's not love cause obviously you're thinking of reasons. It's not the brain but the heart. It should be felt. Kaya nga dapat pinaparamdam yun hindi lang sinasabi. They keep on asking, paano mo malalaman kung love na yun. My answer on that is you'll never know it because you'll just feel it. Kasi nga di ba, know is equal to brain and feel is equal to heart. "