Complicated : (2014)✔️

Chpt.14

Shawn's P.o.v.

When the thunder hit and I heard the house door open I walked towards it. Someond walked in. "Good evening Shawn." the unknown person said. I looked at the person. "Keep praying Shawn. God is going to do great wonders for you." I stepped back a little. "Trust in him. Like the bible says, ask and you shall recieve." The person smiled at me and I watched him fly up. I looked up as he dissapeared. This was getting creepy. I closed the door and locked it as I sat down in the couch. I began thinking. God will forgive and he does forget. But, then again I killed someone. Will he forgive me? At this point I figured that I would have to ask him for forgiveness. I went back on my knees and prayed again.

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I was now at the hospital. I sat down on the chair and looked at Beyonce. I held her hand as I watched the tubes that were connected to her. At first, the doctor said she would be okay and that it wasnt bad. But now she comes saying she has to pull the plug!? I held her hand firm yet softly and layed my hands on her forehead. The couple of days that I went to church they annointed the sick with oil. Any oil. I saw oil on the table and poured a little bit in my hand and touched her forehead. I rubbed it and smiled at her. She never moved. I looked at her and declared everything that I've prayed for. I asked God for forgiveness, for her to stay alive, and id she doesnt for me to stay alive. This is really hard for me. Its now been 3 weeks without eating or drinking. The only thing i've been drinking is water. I saw myself getting thinner but I didnt care. It was one more week the doctor said we had until she pulls the plug. I kissed Beyonce's cheek as I regreted everything that happened. I held her hand and annointed it as well. A few tears fell down my face. I watched Beyonce. She didnt make a movement to anything I did. I could see her breathing. Thank God. But she was struggling to. They might still pull the plug since they said it wouldn't make sense to make her suffer. I sighed when I thought about it. If only i'd let my anger problems pass. I sat on the side of Beyonce and held both of her hands. She never responded to my movement. She couldn't speak, She couldnt move. But I know she knew I was there. I dont think she can feel me touching her. But I know she could feel myself being there. I wanted God to answer this prayer so I been good this entire time. I really do want her to live. I think I fell in love with her. I dont know. But to be able to find out she had to stay alive. I kissed her. Right then and there I kissed her. I felt her pucker her lips to kiss me back and I felt better. She bit my bottom lip and did a slight smile. She tried to open her eyes but she couldn't. I sighed. I haven't seen her beautiful brown eyes since that day. I pulled away from her lips and sat up. I slid my finger against her cheek and I heard her breathe louder than ever.