Complicated : (2014)✔️

Chpt.25

Beyonce's P.o.v.

Now, I feel like a slut. I feel so dirty. So un clean. I seriously don't want to have sex anymore. Its destroying everything. Me and Shawn were now at a different club. We were off the ship. We went to a club in Barbados. Shawn didn't even offer me a drink. He pulled me onto the dance floor.

We weren't close to each other but we were almost touching. He held my hand. "Where did he dance on you first?" he asked I sighed. "Shawn, you're being ignorant." "Answer the question Beyonce." I sighed again. "He danced in front of me and behind." I said. He nodded and turned me around. He held my waist and grinded on me.

I let him because he would be a real bitch if I hadn't. I just went side to side with him. "Thats what you did with him?" he asked. I sighed and shook my head. "Come on.. dance.." he told me. "I will, just let me get into it.." I said. He ran his fingers through my hair. "Can I get a drink?" I asked him. He nodded and I walked away. I went and got a glass of water. No way was I gonna get drunk. Not tonight. Not any night after that night with Chris.

I drank the cup of water and walked back to Shawn. He looked at me and smiled. I gave him a fake smile. For some reason I wasn't feeling him tonight. I wasn't feeling anything actually. Not the island, not the club, not Shawn.. I was just not in the mood. Even though I still tried to make Shawn happy. It seemed like he finds happiness in me. Which pretty much makes no sense. I don't even find happiness in myself. I need Shawn to make me happy.

I haven't talked to my girlfriends in a while! I totally forgot about them. Shawn took my hand and brought me back towards him. I turned around so our fronts were touching each other. He smirked at me. I give him a fake smirk back. He grabbed my lower back and pushed me towards him as he grinded on my front.

I chuckled. "Shawn stop trying and just go with the flow." I said. He looked at me with a confused face. I lifted my leg up high and wrapped it around his waist. He smiled at me as he started going with the flow. I smiled back. He laid his hand down on my leg and moved his hand back and forth. I grinded back along with him.

He gave me a wink and his hands slid down my ass. I grippes his shoulders. "Mm, Shawn.. you a bad boy.." I said. He chuckled and brought his hands back up. I loved the way his warm silky hands rode my back. Bringing chills up and down my spine. I finally removed my leg from his waist and brought it back down. He leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back as we slowly sat down on the couch in the club. Our kiss slowly turned into a make up session. Me nor Shawn never did a session this strong. He never opened his eyes as his hands rode my body. Now was the time I was feeling him.

I placed my hands behind his head as I kissed him back. His hands slid down towards my thighs. I pulled away from the kiss to catch my breath. Shawn looked at me. When I caught my breath I leaned straight into him to kiss him again. He bit my bottom lip and lifted me up. He spun me around towards him and wrapped his arms around my waist. I slowly began popping my ass on him. I know he was smiling behind me. "There you go..." he whispered in my ear. I chuckled as he moved my hips to the beat. I smiled when I saw him grinding against me. He was really going with the flow. I held his back and popped up and down on him.

I laid my head on his shoulder and he took my hand and twirl me again making me face him. He put his arms around my waist and I placed my arms around his neck. I smiled at him and he smiled back. I looked into his eyes and grinded on his front. When he glared back at me I blushed. He chuckled when I blushed. "Babe.." He said I raised up my eyebrows. "That's what were calling each other now?" I asked. He chuckled and nodded. "I think I have the right to call you that" I smiled again when he said that. I started feeling him more. "You have something on your mind?" he asked. "You" I said. He smirked. "Baby.." he said in a flirty tone. I blushed again. "You hungry?" He asked. I nodded "Thought you'd never ask." "Well I did." He stopped grinding on me and took my hand.

We walked outside. "Where you wanna go?" he asked. I shrugged. "No where fancy." I responded. He nodded and we walked down a road. We talked and smiled. Until he saw Chris. He started giving him a death stare. Chris looked at me with lust in his eyes. Shawn gripped my hand tightly and we turned a corner. I just ignored what happened and hoped Shawn would do the same. We walked into Wendys. He walked in the line but I went to a seat. I waited for him. It was about ten minutes till he came back.

He placed a chicken salad. While he had a hamburger. I prayed silently and dug into my food. He just watched me. I stopped eating. "What?" I asked. He blinked. "You're just so beautiful.." he said. I blushed. "Let me guess. That's why you wanted me huh?" he chuckled. "Every guy wants someone attractive. but your personality got to me first." I wanted to break the news to him.

I finished my salad. "Shawn.. baby.." he looked up and me and sipped his drink. "I wanna do everything that a girlfriend does. I just don't want to go towards that sex thing. I feel wrong after what happened. I also feel nasty and dirty because you are still married by law." he took a deep breath. "I understand." "You do?" I said surprisingly. He nodded. "I do." I smiled and took my plate and his I dumped them in the trash and placed our trays on top.

We walked back outside. Shawn sucked his teeth. Chris was there. He walked up to me. "I thought you said that he was just your boss.." "He's more than that." I placed my hands on Shawn's chest. "He's my man so back off." I said. Shawn smiled. "You heard her. I heard that the special in Wendys today is the asshole sandwhich its for five dollars." I laughed and me and Shawn walked off.