Damaged

Part 23

Christens POV

I awoke suddenly in the middle of the night. I must have been having a bad dream or something because I felt the sweat on my forehead and I felt my pulse thrumming. I rolled over in the dark and saw Tobin.

At first seeing her here spread out on the other side of the bed, practically as far away from me as possible, freaked me out. For the first time I thought about what exactly has happened in the last 12 hours.

Tobin came to visit me.

Tobin finding out about Alex and I dating.

Tobin confronting Alex about their past.

Tobin calling me stupid.

Tobin calming me down after my panic attack.

Tobin explaining to me her side of what she believed happened between her and Alex.

Tobin explaining why Alex did what she did.

And with all that has happened there was one thing that I was finally relived to hear. I finally got to hear that the Tobin I know is actually the real Tobin. I don't have to have any reservations anymore about who she is, because she is the person I always thought she was. But the problem is there are so many things that I am still unsure of. First where do I stand with Alex.

We are technically still dating even though I haven't been happy in the relationship lately. I can't help but to think that we both have been using each other as a distraction. And on top of that, hearing how much Alex cared and maybe still cares about Tobin is a lot to take in. They really loved each other and I know that Alex and I are never going to care about each other like that, so I am going to end it with her.

But what about Tobin? Tobin and I have always had this connection. Everything has always been easy with us and I know from the beginning I have always wanted more from her and there were certainly times where I thought she did too. But now how does she feel? She has to be at least confused. I mean she just found out that her first love, never actually meant to cause her so much pain but was just trying to protect her. And now what does that mean for them? Will they want to get back together seeing as the reason they really broke up were multiple miscommunications and not a lack of love?

Frustrated at my own thought I instead tried to focus on something else and that something else just happened to be Tobin. Her mouth was slightly open and she was letting soft breaths out that were now hitting me in the face. After a few seconds of admiring how adorable she looked, I saw her hand reaching out and trying to grasp something but was coming back empty. I looked back at her face and saw her eyebrows furrow like she was upset. Her hand continued to move until it came in contact with my stomach, she immediately grabbed my shirt which was bunched from how I slept earlier. I held absolutely still, trying not to wake her up, but curious as to where she was going with this.

And what she did next took my breath away.

After grabbing my shirt she spread her hand flat against my stomach and then she moved closer towards me until she was able to rest her head on my chest and her arm now was thrown over my side. Her face immediately relaxed and I heard her let out a content sigh and that put a smile on my face and I quickly forgot all my worries and went back to sleep.
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This time when I woke up, it wasn't in a panic instead I woke up feeling more rested then I have in a while. I rolled over but was disappointed with an empty bed. I was disappointed, until I realized I heard the shower going and someone singing in it.