When Time Runs Out

Chapter 17

You're more than enough

I don't know how I made it to my room. All I know was that I'm walking last night heavy hearted. Much this morning, the weather had calmed outside.

Without looking, I knew the sky would be clear now, yet my mind seemed not. I reached for my phone in the side table. I opened it hoping to receive a text from Brandon telling me I don't have to work today. But I received nothing which made me groan.

I heard a knock on my door followed by my Mom's morning remarks. With the tone on her voice I'm sure she don't want to talk about what happened last night.

"Alex bumaba ka na para makakain ka bago ka pumasok"

I made a sound of going out in my bed and walking to the comfort room to wash myself. Narinig ko siyang naglakad pababa at tuluyan akong pumasok para maligo. I felt groggy and my head felt heavy on my neck. But even so, I tried to endure it while washing myself. Pagkatapos kong maligo at magbihis ay naglakad ako papunta sa aking bintana.

I pulled the drapes, further from the window, letting the sunlight stream to my room and to me. Like the light from the sun will give me strength today. I noticed the wet surrounding and the cool wind whirling around.

Kinuha ko ang bag ko at phone ko saka bumaba para kumain. Hindi ko alam kong paano sila haharapin. The rage I'm feeling last night was nowhere to be found. Kung may nararamdaman man ako ngayon ay hiya. I can't show my face to them knowing they are already sick of me and everything about me. I thought I was the one tired from all the dramas but it was them who was sick of keeping up to me.

Pagpasok ko sa kusina ay napatingin silang dalawa sa akin. Nagtuloy ako sa pag-upo at nagsimulang maglagay ng kanin sa plato ko ng biglang naglagay ng bacon si Dad. Tinignan ko siya. Does he really have to act as if everything is okay? Pwede naman niya akong hindi kausapin. They can pretend that I don't exist. Ayaw kong pinipilit sila na lumapit sa akin. I blink my tears away and my Dad noticed it. Pero hindi siya nagsalita. No one dared to talk as we eat. Somehow it's better than acting as if we have a potential conversation.

Hindi ako kinausap ni Mom ng matapos akong kumain. I thought she'll ask me to ask decently towards Dad. Pero nakalabas na ako ay hindi ako binigyan ni Mom ni kahit isang tingin. Maybe I don't deserve a single glance.

A bird called outside, the warmth came in on the light breeze and I felt myself responding to it instinctively. I raise my right hand in the air and letting the rays of the sun escape from the sides of my palm. I inhaled the morning mist just around the cold breeze, letting in into my bone. Letting it give me the enthusiasm I needed today.

I grip my bag harder as I walk in the side of this streets. Mas madaming mga tao ngayon na naglalakad. They come from different directions. Marami sa kanila ang kalalabas lang sa kanilang mga bahay. I saw families walking and heading to the shore. Napansin ko din ang mga nakasabit na mga banderitas sa mga matataas na mga poste ng ilaw.

Those little flags was the cue that the festival of this city is about to start. Kailan kaya nila ito sinabit? Hindi ko man sila nakita. Maybe I'm again to focus on my coarse I forget to live in the moment. I wonder how they spend their festival here.

Maglilibot kaya kami ni Xander? Are we going to try dancing too? Pero naalala ko na hindi pala ako sinagot ni Xander kagabi ng sinabi kon huwag niya akong iiwan. Maybe he is one of them too. Pagod na din siguro siya sa akin.

Nakarating ako sa harap ng Johny Moon ng hindi ko namamalayan. I was about to open the door when a small hand reach my short. Agad akong napatingin sa baba. It was Sky. Smiling shyly.

Nginitian ko siya. Tumingin ako sa likod niya hoping I'll see his yaya. Pero wala akong nakita. Paano kaya nakarating dito itong batang ito?

"Hi po" he greeted me.