When Time Runs Out

Prologue

Signs, symptoms and cautions. I wish I saw them when I needed to. Have you ever tried sleeping with thousands of thoughts in your head that in the first place they should not be there but still they bothers you? Have you ever felt like everything you wanted was never granted by the world? Have you turn yourself away from it?

I'm a misfit. An odd soul. I live through the loneliest place but no one knows. I fight wars inside my head that nobody knows about. At some point I wish I stayed this way. Away from everything and everyone who have the potential to hurt me like shit.

Breaking barriers, breaking walls that surrounds me. That keeps me isolated. Did I made the right choice. Was the time I spend worth his everything? All I know was that a hand grab me from the dark place. I was hesitant but I managed to get out. And now slowly I'm learning to walk on my own. Breath on my own. Experience foreign emotion. You wanted me to fly, to smile completely without anything pulling me back. I did but I wish I never had.

Days, weeks, months and then years... I scanned every corner of the world hoping I'll find you. Then I realized I have to stop. Take a moment to breath. Then suddenly I found you. Your inside my heart. Engraved here the moment you vanished from my eyes. Now I know your words are through. You never left.

I realized something but it's too late. Useless to even think of doing the opposite of everything I did. There was a clock ticking. Loudly that everyone around me heard it's sound but I didn't listen. I was so caught up with my own damn feelings to even care of this people around me of this sound of clock ticking around me. I was self-centered. I thought I don't have anything to lose. Because I already loss everything years ago including myself. Pero meron pa pala. May natira pa sa akin na ngayon ay hinayaan ko din na unti unting mawala sa aking pagkakahawak. There were many cautions along the way. I didn't bother looking. And now it's crushing me. Hard enough that it's breaking my being but I can't do anything. Can I still save myself? Will I?

I would like to leave a vague question to everyone who will read this. Are you willing to let go? Give up the love you've ever wanted or stay and be selfish?

I find it ironic. When time runs out every thing you did will be flashed right before your eyes. All the moments you're in and the moments that you're not. One last time you'll relive the memories you keep in your heart. Maybe that's the reason why people who are dying cry as they catch their last breath.

P.S: maybe one of the official soundtrack of this story is 'All i ever wanted by Johny Tyree'

PPS: After I finished this story I'll change some or the whole of this intro. By that time kasi mas alam ko na yung whole ng story.

InangBayan🇵🇭🇵🇭