When Time Runs Out

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Tumingin ako kay Dad ng tumayo siya. This is the first time I have to stay beside him without any anger or pain inside me. Simula ng narealize ko na wala na akong halaga kay Xander nagising ako sa katotohanan na hindi pa huli ang lahat. Nasa akin parin angpamilya ko at kumpera sa kanya alam kong hindi nila ako iiwan.

"Let's have some walk?" he asked me with a smile.

Tumango ako at tumayo.

He walked slowly for me to catch him. I felt like a kid walking beside my Dad. Unsure of the steps I'm taking because it feels very unfamiliar.

I was waiting for him to speak the whole time because of the hurtful words I said to him last time. I admit I did something wrong. Hindi ko dapat siya sinigawan at sinabihan ng masama pero nadala lang ako ng galit ko noon.

Nandito ba kami ngayon dahil kakausapin niya ako tungkol sa pag-aaway namin sa kwarto nila ni Mom? Sasabihin ba niya sa akin na siya ang dahilan kong bakit umiiyak si Mom?

"Have you ever heard about the story of how the sun love the moon and star that he has to die every night just to let them breath?"  He asked. It was an out of the blue question that I didn't know what to answer.

Mukhang hindi niya naman ito pinansin at nagpatuloy parin sa paglalakad. Nang makita ko ang bench kung saan ako laging pumupunta ay alam ko ng doon ang destinasyon namin.

Umupo kaming dalawa ng marinig ko siyang bumuntong hininga. Napatingin ako sa kanya dahil doon. He was looking at me too. The only difference is that I'm not sure what he was thinking while he seems to know my problems.

"You don't look fine Alex? Nagsisisi ka ba na pumunta ka dito?"

Hindi ako nakapagsalita. Nagsisisi ba ako?

If he did asked me that question weeks ago, there's no doubt I'll say yes. Pero sa ilang linggo ko na pananatili dito ay natutunan kong mahalin ang lugar na ito. I learned to love the people and live with them. Though some seems to leave me and act as if they can't see me, I will never regret going here.

Dahil sa pagpunta ko dito nasubukan ko muling makasabay si Dad kumain. Nasubukan kong makita muli si Mom na ngumiti at tumawa. I've got to experience a lot of things na kailan man hindi ko naiisip na mararamdaman ko. And I met Xander again... Kaya kahit kailan hindi ko pagsisisihan na sumama ako kay Mom dito.

Umiling ako sa tanong niya.

"Hindi po."

"I'm actually starting to love this place." I said shyly.

"Then that's good to hear anak"

The way he call me his daughter has this effect on me. Matagal ko na itong hindi naririnig kaya hindi ko mapigilan matigilan kapag sinasabi niya ito. The way he call me his daughter feels like a music to my ear. Is this what happens when you let yourself forgive those who hurt you? Ganito pala ang pakiramdam kapag binuksan mo na ang puso mo sa mga tao na gusto kang makasama.

"Kung hindi ako anak, sino?" Tanong niya "Alam kong may problema ka. You can tell me"

Tumingin ako sa kanya. Should I tell him? Its about Xander. About what's happening to him and what is happening between us. Kung paano ako nahihirapan gumising dahil alam kong hindi na kami gaya ng dati.

Nag-aalangan ako dahil hindi ko ito ginagawa. I don't usually open up to people even with Mom kaya nahihiya ako and now I have to tell Dad everything for the first time after years of hating him. Nakakahiya, paano kung pagtawanan niya ako?