Before I fall (ironhide l.s)

Chapter 36

(I really didn't want to do this but I have to... it all leads up to the next chapter...I'm sorry😭)

In ratchets med bay-

Maddies pov
I stared ahead of me as dad kept yelling at mom. Ratchet was tying to get him to stop. Mom was angry, she wasn't supposed to be Sitting up but she did and it was only to yell at dad. I had no idea what they were fighting for, nothing had happened... it's just another day. My mom and dad only tell the story on what they want, not what they get. They tell the story of the good not the bad. My dad got louder,
"You created freaks! There not even my children! Maddie is the only one good enough for me!" He yelled Mom got mad. "They are my children, if that's how you feel fine, you don't ever need to see them or me again." Mom said and stood up starting to walk away before dad pulled his hand back and slapped her. My moms jaw dropped and dads face was weird. He lifted his hand and looked at it.
"I'm-"
"Don't"
"So only when I hit you everything goes crazy?!"
"It's not even that, it's that you even thought about laying your hands on me in the first place." Mom was crying, I had no idea what to do as I stood in the corner and cried silently to myself. I coughed on accident and my mom and dad looked
"Oh my gosh! Maddie! Are you okay?! How much did you see?" My mom frantically asked but I had seen it all, it was too late.
"Everything, enough to know that we should leave." I said with a shaking voice. My head was held high as I held back my tears so my "father" couldn't see.
"You have no say in what goes on here little girl" he said
"You have no authority over me"
"I'm your father"
"No your a man who hits his wife and yells at his kids, Mom pack your things, were leaving" he came at me growling and I stood my ground, right before ratchet tackled him.
"Mom now" we ran out, Mom was still bleeding a little bit but she said she was fine.
"DAD!" My Mom cried when she saw him.
"Alexis? Maddie? What happened?" Papa asked.
"I-I'm going to go pack Mom" I said and walked into the bedroom with Lyndsey and Cameron in it. I picked them both up then set them on the bed with pillows. I grabbed the diaper bag and filled it to the top. I grabbed suitcases and filled them all up. I picked up Cam and Lynds and then took them to my room. I packed all of my stuff. When I was about done my mom came in. She smiled at me then down at the twins. She picked them up and hugged them then looked at me. She walked forward and I wrapped my arms around my mom and the twins. I let go and smiled at my mom again. "Go pack, the twins are done and I'm almost done too." I said. She nodded
"Papa said he can take us to my house or a hotel, it's up to you." She said right before she walked out.
"Hotel? He would check the house first. You know it." I said lowly. She nodded, "I'm sorry I have to put you in this situation." She said and I shrugged my shoulders and turned around. Tears prickled at my eyes trying to push there way out. I packed everything and looked around at my bare walls. I sat on the bare mattress that had been stripped of there purple sheets. I looked at my dresser and saw something on the top. I walked over to it and picked it up. It was an envelope, I opened it.

Alexis, 5-3-08

I'm sorry I had to go on this mission and leave you all alone with Maddie, but there was no way I could get out of it and you know that. You are my world, my everything. I'm sorry for ever hurting you. I love you, and I love Maddison too. Kiss her for me tonight. Hold her tight and never let her go. I need her, I need you, I need both of you. Like I said I'm sorry and I'll be home soon.

Love,
'Hide

P.s Jazz took this picture when we were at the family dinner.

So this was written 9 years ago. That doesn't make sense, why is it in here? I pulled the small paper out and saw a picture. It was of Mom holding my hand and looking at dad and dad was looking at Mom. It was a cute picture. Tears were spilling over my eyes as I put the picture back in the envelope. I pulled the dresser back from behind the wall and saw writing,
"You can change the world, you can fix this whole thing, we believe in you" as quick as it came it was gone. My eyes widened and I pushed the dresser back. What was that? I opened my closet door and there it was again, the same writing, but like the other one it just disappeared. I closed the doors and sat down. My mom came in not too long after and asked if I was ready and I shook my head.
"No. I'm not ready. I can't be ready. I won't ever be ready." I cried harder and my mom sighed.
"I know but we have to go." She walked over and sat down.
"I remember when you were just born and we had no nursery or anything for you. I was kidnapped by the Decepticons and your father spent all of his free time building your nursery. I came home and I had you and then he surprised me with it. I remember his face when he held you in his arms for the first time, when he smiled down at you like you were the only thing he cared about in the world. Your father really loves you, you know Maddie." Mom spoke, her voice cracking. I nodded.
"And he loves you too." I said and we both cried together and for the first time in a long time, I couldn't decide whether I wanted to stay here or go with my mom.