// margot kate frankin //
@margotkatefranklin: "do you care, do you care? why don't you care? I gave you all of me; my blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears. why don't you care?"
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The thought of leaving LA when summer ends scared me. I worried way too much for a 17 year old girl, but I couldn't help it. Questions buzzed through my head and haunted me before I fell asleep.
Some were about my music.
What about my career? Will anything come from this? Will I ever get anywhere? Or will I be stuck posting YouTube videos every Thursday for the next thirty years of my life?
Some were about the future.
What am I going to do with my life? Where am I going to go after high school? University? Los Angeles? What am I going to do?
But most of the questions were about him. Us. Which is stupid, considering I've only known him for a month and a half, and have only been dating him for a couple weeks. A couple weeks has felt like an eternity. Like a dream I don't want to wake up from, but I know that damn alarm clock is going to blaring in my ear shortly.
Is this it? When I go home, are we over? How could we ever make it work? Should I even be falling for him like this when I know I'm leaving in a month? Is this just wasted time?
All these questions had my brain spinning, too much to be able to sleep. I sat up in my bed, the dark emptiness of the night somehow exciting me. Liz was asleep, my dad was asleep, and I was awake. Me and the night.
I pressed the home button on my phone, reading the time. 3:04 a.m.
I got up and walked past Liz's room, then quietly slid open the door to the balcony.
The night air hit me, awakening me all at once. I knew I wasn't going back to sleep, not easily at least.
I unlocked my phone and quickly found the green Messages icon, tapping Shawn's name.
margot: any chance you're still up??
margot: sorry if I woke you up though
I bit my lip and anxiously hoped for a reply, knowing it would be slightly ridiculous to think he would be up so late, but hanging on to the off chance that he has the same insomniac tendencies like me.
The ping of my phone instantly shot butterflies through my stomach, eagerly looking at my phone.
shawn: you got me
margot: you weren't sleeping were you? god I would feel awful
shawn: no, I wish. couldn't fall asleep
margot: any reason why? maybe there was a really cool girl that you couldn't get off your mind?
shawn: maybe that, or maybe I drank too much coffee before bed again
shawn: but I prefer your theory
margot: I told you to stop drinking coffee before bed! that's why you are always so sleepy in the morning, because you make stupid decisions before bed. smh at you
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the fall • s.m.
Fanfiction"Falling for you is dangerous. I can't control my own emotions, my own movements when I'm with you. If I fall in love, you know what will happen next between us. The fall," I said. There was silence between us for a few moments, and my heart pounded...
