Payb Takes Book 3

Fears

July 6, 11pm:

R: *sighs contentedly as he pulls M closer while the cuddle on the dome couch in their garden balcony after a late dinner*

M:*wraps her arms around his waist and snuggles on his chest, it's a clear night and the stars are out so they decided to sit outside to watch the view outside for a while* Love?

R: Hmmm? *kisses the top of M's head*

M: Wala.

R: *chuckles* Ang labo naman. May itatanong ka, ano yun?

M: Wag na.

R: Sure?

M: *hums her response*

R: Sige. Basta kung ano man yang tanong mo, Mahal na mahal kita ang sagot. *squeezes M tighter and kisses her temple, taking a deep breath to inhale her sweet scent*

M: Mahal na mahal din kita kaya nga ano...

R: Ano, Love? Ayan na. Sasabihin na niya.

M: *looks up at R* Wag mong iisipin na may doubts ako sa'yo ha? Dahil kung meron, hindi mo ako asawa ngayon.

R: Oo naman. Teka... Kinakabahan ako. Kung sino man yang pinagseselosan mo, tandaan mo, she is not Nicomaine.

M: Hindi naman ako nagseselos eh.

R: *pouts* Hindi ba talaga? Magselos ka naman kahit konti.

M: *raises an eyebrow* May dapat ba akong pagselosan? Gusto mo ba talaga akong magselos? *glares at R*

R: Susmaryosep! Katakot! Hindi na po. Baka matulog ako sa kalsada nito.

M: So wala?

R: *shakes his head* Wala po. Promise. I love you. Ikaw lang. *kisses M's forehead* Ikaw lang. *kisses her nose* Ikaw lang. *kisses M's lips*

M: Dapat lang. Umayos ka. *pinches R's nose*

R: Maayos naman ah.

M: *smiles* Sobra. The best. *lifts her head to kiss R's lips*

R: Ikaw din the best. *leans in to kiss her lips again, deeply*

M: *giggles as R chases her lips and plants several tiny kisses on it after their lips parted* Kulit! Nag-uusap pa tayo.

R: Isa na lang please.

M: Luuuh... *quickly kisses R's lips* Ayan na. Tapos na. Pwede na ulit?

R: Mag-kiss?

M: Mag-usap. Ano ba? *laughs*

R: Sabi ko nga. *kisses her cheek*

M: So, ayun na nga. *leans her head on his chest*

R: Yun na nga. Anong tanong mo?

M: *looks up at the sky and watches the twinkling of the stars for a little while* So mag-asawa na nga tayo di ba?

R: Huh? Di ka pa rin sure? Nakadami na nga tayo ng honeymoon. Gusto mo ulitin natin yung kasal ngayon?

M: *giggles* Sandali kasi may point ako.

R: Okay. Okay. Sorry, Love. *kisses M's temple*

M: Yun nga. We have this whole future together that we really don't know the certainty of. Ikaw ba? Do you have any fears sa future natin?

R: *sighs, looks up at the stars* Normal lang naman yun. Madami kaya nga pinaghahandaan ko din yun. Takot akong mabigo kita, na hindi kita maalagaang mabuti, na hindi ko maibigay ang mga kailangan mo at ng mga magiging anak natin, na hindi ko ma-meet yung mga expectations mo sa future natin, na hindi ko mapantayan yung mga kinalakihan mong comfort sa buhay, na magkulang ako para sa'yo.

M: *looks up at R, caresses his face* That's impossible. Never kang magiging kulang. Sobra-sobra ka pa nga para sa akin. Tsaka hindi ko naman kailangan ang lahat ng sinasabi mo, yung nandito ka lang palagi kasama ko, yung magkasama lang tayo na masaya at nagmamahalan. Okay na ako sa future natin. *smiles*

R: *looks into M's eyes* Alam mo kung anong pinaka-kinatatakutan ko?

M: Ano?

R: *stares at M intently, brushes stray hair from her forehead, speaks solemnly* Ang mawala ka sa buhay ko. *sighs and blinks away his tears* Hindi ko kakayanin.

M: *sniffles, wipes her own tears* Me too. Hindi ko kakayaning mawala ka. Hindi talaga. *sobs*

R: *sobs* Wag kang umiyak.

M: *wipes R's tears with the back of her hand* Umiiyak ka din eh. *sits up, rests her palms on his chest, leans her forehead on his*

R: *cradles her face in his hands and strokes her hair* I love you. *kisses M's lips* I love you. *kisses M longer* I love you so much. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita, Mrs. Nicomaine Faulkerson.

M: *climbs on R's lap with her knees on either side of his hips* I love you more and more and more, Richard Faulkerson Jr. And as long as I am with you, I have nothing else to fear. Mahal na mahal din kita. *smiles, gently rubs her nose on his, kisses his lips passionately* 💛🍃

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