Payb Takes Book 3

Queen

July 29, 2017:

I saw you crying out of frustration after the final rehearsals today before the grand finals and I felt a thousand daggers stab my heart with every sob and sniffle.

I knew how you always strive for perfection and that morning, nothing seemed to go your way. I could sense the pain and pessimism you were feeling and if I could I would've taken it all away.

I couldn't look at the bruises on your arms and legs without my heart breaking in two, so you could imagine how much torture your tears brought to me. The worst part is there wasn't much I can do for you at the moment and I was angry at myself because of that.

I found myself clenching my fists quietly and drawing a slow deep breath, in an attempt to extinguish the flare of emotions sparking inside of me, seeing you like that was just too much.

You are my wife, my life, my queen and what kind of man does that make me?

My love, I would have do everything for you. I would move mountains and part oceans for you if I could but there was not much I could do for you at that moment and that hurt like hell.

If it were up to me, I would only surround you with everything fine and soft and sweet and gentle so nothing can ever harm or upset you.

I would put you on a pedestal and place roses at your feet. I would bathe you in perfume and fragrant flowers. I would lay you on silk sheets. I would wrap you in the finest robes and jewels and unroll velvet carpets on every surface you walk on like a queen.

But there you were, bawling your eyes out while I stood helplessly watching in a corner. I hated myself. I felt useless.

Then your gaze sought mine and when our eyes met, yours sparkled like you just found an oasis in the middle of a scorching desert. They told me I was worth something, like I was your whole world and you needed me.

I walked over to where you were and wrapped you in my arms. You continued to sob and cry that still tore me up to my very soul but with you holding on to me like that, with every ounce of strength of your tired body, with every drop of passion in your heart, I realized I wasn't worthless at all because my queen, my goddess needed me.

As I held you close and gently stroked your hair and back, I thought of taking you home. Forget today. Forget everything. I just wanted to take you away from the pressure that was causing you all that stress.

"Uwi na tayo. Tama na to." I whispered.

It was then that you looked at me and smiled. "Hindi. Kaya ko to."

"Sure ka. Ito talaga gusto mo?" I asked.

You nodded your head with a look of determination on your face. "Yes, Love. Let's do this. Ay! Kalaban ka nga pala."

"Alam na alam mong kakampi mo ako palagi kahit nasaang team pa tayo, Love. Kung ito talaga ang gusto mo, you have my support, one hundred one percent." I grinned. "Go Team RaMen!"

"Huy! Madinig ka ng teammates mo, ma-disown ka pa ng wala sa oras." You laughed. Your laughter was the most beautiful sound.

"Hindi ako madi-disown, kailangan nila ang dimple ko." I laughed with you.

"Yabang!" You grinned and pinched my arm then I knew you were definitely alright.

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You swung across the stage up on that pole with that mask but your eyes still showed what was in your heart at that very moment... COURAGE.

With the display of strength and passion you showed as you bravely braced for each lift and toss when they propelled you in the air, I fell deeper in love with you. If such a thing was possible for how much I completely and unconditionally love you, I have.

You, my Nicomaine, are queen. A queen who wears a crown on her head with sophistication and holds a spear in her hand with valor. A queen who dances gracefully in balls and marches fearlessly into war. A queen who delights in the beauty of luxury and also embraces the horror of the battlefield.

You are a queen who rules, leads, conquers and thrives in all... good and bad, beautiful and ugly, opulent and stark. A queen worthy of adulation.

You are my wife, my life, my queen. I hold my head up high as I walk with you in my arms because I am your king and I will always be by your side to dance with you in every ball and to fight with you in all the battles you will face. 👑 👸💛🍃

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