(Wild One) Wild Seduction

Chapter Thirty-Three

CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

Soundtrack: Head Above Water – Avril Lavigne

CROSS

I was full of tears as I wake up the next morning. Priscilla was not around beside me and even in every part of my home. I was left alone again. I don't have to know if her stuffs were still here. Obviously, most of her things wasn't here anymore but some were still placed neatly in the shelves. Iniwan na naman n'ya ako, at ganito pala talaga kasakit ang iwan ka sa pangatlong pagkakataon ng mga taong mahal mo.

Actually, we have same experiences. I lost my mom, Sheila, and my own son. While, she lost both of her parents, and our son, but there is Russel who is loving her again as a lover. I feel jealous, I was envy him.

Sometimes, I wish I was him so I would have met and loved Priscilla earlier.

The emptiness of this room is giving me a heartache. I continued to work even I was crying in pain. Eventually, Nanay Lucy visited me in my own house. She caught me sitting on the floor while my laptop is in upon of my lap, viewing my wife's photos.

Even our marriage was not registered, my heart still loving her as mine. Our love binds us. I know to myself how much I love her; how much I want to spend my hours with her.

Nanay Lucy tried to get my laptop from me, pero hindi ko iyon binitawan kahit na nababasa ko na ito ng luha ko ang mismong keyboard. She rubbed my back, and hugged me sideways. She acting again like my mom but in a good way.

"Mag paghinga ka na, Cross." She whispered to me.

The slideshow still playing in the screen. "I'll just finish this, Nay." I sobbed.

"Huwag mo ng pahirapan ang sarili mo, anak." She rubbed again my back and kissed my forehead. Her comfort has been my healer before, but I think it wouldn't be enough now. I had so much pain in my heart.

Now, Priscilla is gone I don't know how to act normal in front of people.

Nanay Lucy convinced me to take a rest in my room while she's doing chores and cooking my food tonight.

The next day, I tried to visit the coffee shop where Priscilla had worked before. But she's not there, no trace of her in every corner. I speak to the owner, and she's also wondering where she has been. I spent my whole morning in the coffee shop, making sure if she could stop here to work or to visit her friends. But I failed to see her.

Next place I visited was their old house. I was calling her name in front of the door while knocking but someone speak to me that it was already on sale. I lost much confident to find her, especially when I can't reach her ex-boyfriend through a phone call. I don't even know Russel's home address. I don't know where to find her or them.

I wish I shouldn't have slept the night before she walked out through my door, para napigilan ko s'yang hindi ako iwan. God knows I will choose her over again my family, because she gave me a reason to live while I distance myself from my own father.

Three days when Myla came back after a trip from Middle East. They had a family vacation, and she chose not to force me to go with her. But as day goes by, these feelings in my heart gets harder and arduous at the same time. Seems like I'm burying myself, while I'm dying inside.

All I could do is to stare at the photos I have taken from the vacation we had before. I'm always repeating all the things I have done the day after she gone.

Bumalik ako sa trabahong opisina at doon pinalipas ang mga oras ko, hindi madali pero kinakaya ko naman kahit papaano. Medyo sumasagi lang minsan ang mga aalala at pangalan ng asawa ko. I focused and it's my first time to talk to some of employees here. They knew me as son of the President, but majority of them are unknown for me. Nagkaroon ako ng chance para makilala sila nang kumain ako sa cafeteria sa lobby ng building na 'to. Ako mismo ang lumapit sa kanila para makilala sila at makipag-kwentuhan. Nathan and Kristine accompanied me, kaya hindi ako out of place masyado.