Kogane

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So many things had changed since the blue lion had been discovered. Your life turned completely upside down but not everything was bad. Sure you missed your family and friends but you had new ones, including aliens (which was awesome to you). You started to develop relationships with the paladins pretty quickly, especially because you were with them at the Garrison (even though you had never spoken before).
You still remembered the times before Keith had been booted: you had always admired him, his piloting skills were amazing so you looked up to him, since that was what you wanted to be as well, a pilot. You developed a crush on him and when you went to space you finally got together.
Dating Keith could be a real challenge sometimes because of his temper, but Shiro was always a helping hand. When Shiro disappeared, his anger took a whole nother level since it had been the second time already. Keith was now the new black paladin and leader of Voltron so he was constantly stressed and anxious. Every time you went on a mission he would end up getting distracted from the actual goal and, regardless of the consequences, would risk the team's safety by pushing it to its limits. He was desperate to find Shiro and you didn't blame him, you understood how important he was to him, but Keith needed to calm down and you probably shouldn't have told him that.
"Calm down?" he asked incredulously "How do you want me to calm down when Shiro is missing? Again?!" it had been a complicated mission. Lotor made you believe you were close to finding Shiro, he led you to think he was on an abandoned planet as a prisoner, which wasn't the case at all. He had given all of you hope, he had given Keith hope - and now he was devastated.
"Keith" you called gently, trying not to annoy him "I understand but-"
"That's your problem, Y/N, you don't understand." He interrupted you, his cold eyes piercing your skin. "How could you possibly understand?" he threw the question to the air, emphasizing the "you".
"And what do you mean with that?" you crossed your arms starting to get annoyed as well. "Why wouldn't I?
"I am the black paladin, I am the leader of Voltron-"
"So what? Does that come with some extra privilege to feel things?"
"I am the one who gives the orders, I am the one who has to choose what to do and deal with its consequences!" he rose his tone getting closer to you.
"But the consequences affect us too! And if it wasn't for your reckless leadership and desperate desire to find Shiro maybe there wouldn't be any." You rose yours too, your face turning slightly red.
He stopped for a moment, trying to collect words that could describe how angry he was "Why are you even giving your opinion?" he was now screaming at you "You aren't even a paladin!" he pointed out "You aren't even part of the team!" those words echoed in room and you could swear that Allura, who was on the other side of the castle, had heard it.
You stared at him, hurt crossing your face. You never thought he would say that to you, not him. You always had your doubts on being useful to the team, you didn't have a lion, your fighting skills had improved a lot, sure, but not enough to make you a good fighter, you understood some things about tech... But there was always someone better than you. You tried to push away those thoughts every day by telling yourself "I'm enough." but you weren't so sure of that anymore.
You turned and left without saying a word and you didn't look back, not even when your boyfriend called for you. You ran to your room, locking the door and letting your body slide until you hit the floor. You stared at nowhere in particular and you cried, your sobs muffled against the soft skin of your hands.
You weren't sure what time it was or for how long you'd been sitting there but you heard calm footsteps that stopped outside your door. You tried to be quiet so that whoever was outside didn't think you were there but soon enough you heard a few knocks on your door.
"Y/N, I know you're in there" Keith sighed when you didn't answer "Please... let me in."
You shook your head, refusing to open the door and you stared at the ceiling, more tears streaming down your face.
"I-I didn't mean what I said.." he started "Shiro... Shiro is like a big brother to me, he-he helped me in my darkest times. At the Garrison, he was always there if I needed anything and I don't think I would be half the pilot and person I am today if it wasn't for him. It frustrates me that I can't do the same for him, that I couldn't do anything to help him when he was held captive by the galra, that I can't help him now because I don't even know where he is or.. if he's even alive." He whispered this last part, afraid that if he said it too loudly it would become reality.
"You are right. I have been so blind with finding him that it's all I think about. I'm being selfish, I'm not thinking about the team.. I'm not thinking about you.." he stared blankly at the floor before continuing "You are part of the team, whether you have a lion or not and I'm sorry if I made you think otherwise. Even the mice are part of the team " he chuckled "You are very important to me, Y/N and I... I hope you know that." He waited for your answer but when he realized you weren't giving him any, he got up and started to slowly walk away.
"Keith" he turned around and saw you staring at him, eyes red and cheeks still very wet. He ran to you and without hesitation held you in his arms. You placed your arms around his torso and wept against his chest while he caressed your hair.
"I am so sorry for what I said." He whispered, inhaling the sweet scent of your hair. He smoothly cupped your cheeks and stared at your E/C eyes "I would never do or say anything to hurt you. I know I'm difficult sometimes-"
"Sometimes?" you scoffed, a ghost of a smile on your lips.
"A lot of times" he rolled his eyes playfully "But I love you and just want to do my best to be a good leader and a good boyfriend"
"You are a good boyfriend, Keith. You just need to calm down a little and let others help you." His gaze started to drift from you but you lifted his chin forcing him to look at you "No one, I repeat, no one can do this on their own. We are human, we all have limits. We just want the best for you." He smiled cleaning the tears that rested on your cheeks.
You leaned closer to him and united your lips. It was a slow, tender kiss and after all these months of dating, you still felt the butterflies on your stomach as if you were reliving your first kiss with him all over again. You loved him and now you were surer than ever.

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