After The Rain✔️

The talk

Ever have one of those moments when things become really awkward? Yep, today would be that day. Raven and I were standing at the kitchen sink doing dishes and I decided to talk to him about something important. Although I think maybe I should have given him the heads up.

"Raven do you ever think about sex?"

He stopped. "Sometimes, but it's not something that consumes me day and night."

We went back to the dishes until I added, "With me?" Then he dropped a plate causing it to break on the floor. He looked at me stunned.

"Um, well, uh, I think I will get a broom and dustpan and clean this up," he said making a hasty exit. I stood there confused. It was just a question. Raven returned a few minutes later with a broom and dustpan in hand. I helped him clean up the mess. Then we went back to finishing the dishes.

"Sorry if I caught you off guard," I said as I rinse off a dish.

"Well, you kind of doing, but I knew at some point we would have to talk about it. I just wasn't sure when you were ready to talk." He dried the dishes and put them away.

"Okay. So, how many women have you been with?" I was casual about it because I didn't want him to think I was prying.

"A few, nothing serious," he mentioned.

"A few, you mean like two or three?"

"No," he answered.

"So, how many exactly have you been with?"

"Do you really want to know?"

I stood there and took a deep breath. Did I really want to know? I mean, does it make a difference how I would see him? I wasn't so sure. "Honestly, I don't know."

"I'll tell you what, all I can say is I am experience and no I have never had a girlfriend. You are the only girlfriend, I have ever had."

"So, they were like flings or something?"

"To be honest, I was horny, they were available and it just happened. Not all girls are relationship material. They're just as bad as guys," he said bluntly.

"So, you basically fucked a girl," I said to him taking him by surprise. I've been hanging out with Braydon too long.

"A little crude way of putting it, but yeah," he said with a look. He looked at me and saw I was over thinking this, "Molly, I'm not going to lie about my past. It is what it is. All I can say is when the moment happens between us, it will be special. We'll take our time and it will be full with love. You and I both deserve it to be that way."

That did make me feel somewhat better. I guess these questions were bound to come up. Sex had been the last thing I had been thinking about all these months. Raven, never pushed it. The most we had ever done had kissed and we did sleep together at the cabin but all we did was sleep.

It felt nice not to have that pressure, but I wasn't sure how I would react to when it finally happens. Would I be scared? Would I be anxious? Would I be nervous? Just thinking about it actually got me to thinking about sex.

As we finished up, I turned to him and he looked at me, " Do you think we could maybe test the waters?"

"You sure you're ready for that," he asked.

"Well, we could just take it slow and if I'm not ready, I can let you know," I said to him.

"Okay, that's fair," he said. He took my hand and lead me out of the kitchen.

"Where we are going?"

"To test the waters." I couldn't help but giggle.

*****
We sat on my bed facing each other as he leaned over and kissed me. Okay, that was a good start. Then he reached down and pulled off his shirt. Whoa, he had a really nice body.

He kissed me again and reached down and gently pulled off my top, leaving me in only my bra and pants. He continued to kiss me and pulled me onto his lap. He reached behind me and unclasped my bra, gently pulling it off.

He stopped kissing me and looked at me. I felt so exposed that I moved my arms to cover my chest. He stopped me, "Don't. I want to look at you. Relax. We won't do anything you're not ready for." I lowered my arms and he looked at me. He took in every inch of me and gently moved his hand to my breasts. Then he started to massage them and cupped them. This made me a little excited and I could feel my underwear get wet. I shifted on his lap.

He lowered his head and placed soft kisses on my skin until his mouth found their way to each breast. This really made me shift in my position. As he continued I couldn't help but start moving my hips back and forth. Then he stopped and looked at me.

He had a seriousness to him, "Molly, I need to ask you something before we go any further."

"Okay."

"That night, did you feel your body convulse and release?"

I had to think for a moment, "I think so, but I couldn't help it. Why?"

"Because your dry humping me and it's turning me on. Maybe we need to stop right now."

"Are you sure because I can stop?"

"The problem is I don't think you will be able to even if you wanted to. Your body is just reacting the way it's supposed to and unfortunately for me, it's making my body react the way it's supposed to," he said looking down at his lap and that's when I saw it. The bulge in his pants was quite hard.

We decided to stop. I put my bra and shirt back on as he pulled his back on. Then he promptly left the room to handle business, if you catch my drift.

I give Raven credit. He stopped it before it went any further. Most guys wouldn't care. They would have just carried on. It was that moment that I decided that I wanted to go further.

******
Since that night, Raven and I tested out the waters as much as we could. Any time I was uncomfortable, I told him to stop and he stopped. He only went as far as I was comfortable with.

One evening we were sitting on the couch watching a movie when he said, "I was thinking that maybe we could get a room for a night that's if you wanted to."

I looked at him and thought about it, "How would we pay for it, let alone tell my parents about it?"

"Good point," he said with a sigh. We went back to the movie. We might be inching our way there, but even we had to be reasonable about this. Lack of money and time was making things difficult, plus when and if it did happen, I just wanted to be able to not worry.

******
"You're not serious," Robbie asked him incredulously.

"Rob, we really want to be together in that way, but it seems like nothing is working out in our favor. Come on, I wouldn't come to you, but I know you have some cash stashed away," Raven said.

"Rave, I know you want to be with her man, but I got to tell you, I don't feel comfortable doing this. Sorry," he said.

"It's fine. I guess when it happens, it will happen," he said, letting out a sigh and sitting down on the bed.

Robbie sat down next to him, "Raven, you don't have to have sex to prove how much you want to be with Molly and I'm pretty sure she's fine with it. But if this is what you have been doing just to have sex with her, then that's not cool either."

"Robbie, I would never do that to her! She means too much to me. I mean, hell she's the only girlfriend, I have ever had and honestly, I love her. Maybe waiting a little while longer wouldn't hurt," he said resigning to the fact things weren't exactly panning out like they are supposed to.

I quickly walked back to my room. That's when I decided to make a call.

"Hi Trish, it's Molly. I need your help," I said and from there I formulated a plan. There was no way I was going to go to the guys for this. They were already peeved that they didn't get a chance with me. Plus, I knew Trish would be more than happy to help us. She apparently has some weird ship name for Raven and I called Maven. I will never understand people.